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This is hard.
Really hard.
I'm kind of amazed I've gone the last 4 and a half weeks without doing anything incredibly stupid, but I am really trying to get my shit together.
The conclusion I have come to is that I have no idea how human beings are supposed to spend their free time and
A) not destory another person's life
B) not go completely insane with boredom.
I don't know how to accomplish both A and B at the same time. I never have known, I've never figured it out.
What, you're saying I should get a hobby? Well I've got like SEVEN MILLION, my living room floor is currently strewn with countless finished knitting projects and drawings and paintings and all sorts of bullshit I have been trying like crazy to keep myself occupied with. I just finish everything way too fast. I started reading a book and then did nothing else for two days until I finished it.
So what the fuck.
No shady dealings with this one, I'm done. That cuts out like half of my phone book. You know how many people I've hung out with in the last month? With the exception of going to Moses Lake that weekend, I've hung out with my mom and my sister once for 24 hours.
The rest of the time I have been completely alone. I'm just saying that if I don't call anyone to hang out with who I know has ulterior motives to hanging out with me, who is left?
I am nearing the home stretch, I'm pretty close. Two more weeks probably, one and a half if I'm lucky. I'm running out of steam and I'm running out of tv to watch and at this rate I feel like I'm running out of sanity.
I feel bad because he thinks this is hard for me but I don't think he really has any idea of HOW hard. Of how much of this I've had to put up with in the past and how I used to put up with it. I just want him back, I don't want him to leave again :(
I miss him, I forgot how shitty things are without him. I know I said I didn't ever want to take Corey for granted but damn. I don't I don't! Now give him back.
Really hard.
I'm kind of amazed I've gone the last 4 and a half weeks without doing anything incredibly stupid, but I am really trying to get my shit together.
The conclusion I have come to is that I have no idea how human beings are supposed to spend their free time and
A) not destory another person's life
B) not go completely insane with boredom.
I don't know how to accomplish both A and B at the same time. I never have known, I've never figured it out.
What, you're saying I should get a hobby? Well I've got like SEVEN MILLION, my living room floor is currently strewn with countless finished knitting projects and drawings and paintings and all sorts of bullshit I have been trying like crazy to keep myself occupied with. I just finish everything way too fast. I started reading a book and then did nothing else for two days until I finished it.
So what the fuck.
No shady dealings with this one, I'm done. That cuts out like half of my phone book. You know how many people I've hung out with in the last month? With the exception of going to Moses Lake that weekend, I've hung out with my mom and my sister once for 24 hours.
The rest of the time I have been completely alone. I'm just saying that if I don't call anyone to hang out with who I know has ulterior motives to hanging out with me, who is left?
I am nearing the home stretch, I'm pretty close. Two more weeks probably, one and a half if I'm lucky. I'm running out of steam and I'm running out of tv to watch and at this rate I feel like I'm running out of sanity.
I feel bad because he thinks this is hard for me but I don't think he really has any idea of HOW hard. Of how much of this I've had to put up with in the past and how I used to put up with it. I just want him back, I don't want him to leave again :(
I miss him, I forgot how shitty things are without him. I know I said I didn't ever want to take Corey for granted but damn. I don't I don't! Now give him back.