Pets
I went through this thing where I loved getting/having pets, and I guess I just overwhelmed myself because now I sometimes wish I had NONE. I never thought I would be someone who would consider having none. Well... I'd consider a fish tank. But that's hardly a pet. It's almost more like a hobby/decor. I love staring at fish tanks, and once you get them going, they don't require that much maintenance. I'm not doing it right now, though. Anyway....
This is terrible, but sometimes I wish all of my animals, except for maybe Boone, would vanish. I wish I could rehome them. We don't pay enough attention to them. They don't get long walks regularly. I hardly even pet them. When a cat climbs on my lap, I push it off. It makes me feel crowded, and they have fleas and fleas love me. I cannot deal with the fleas. We use Frontline and dust and spray and bathe them once a week. They wear flea collars, too. And we still have fleas. I feel a sting and see them biting me all of the time. It disgusts me. I am covered in bites constantly.
The dogs sleep in crates. I wish I could do away with them because they take up so much space and look like crap in the living room, but I don't want Hadley in the living room unsupervised. She will lay on the couch and she leaks some sort of fluid, which is disgusting. She also has moments of incontinence. Not often, but more often than Boone. If it weren't for Hadley, I'd let Boone roam the house, and probably pay more attention to him (because he is my favorite), but I don't want to be unfair to Hadley, so I don't.
Then there are the seizures. Mom accidentally gave Hadley the wrong medication for the first few days that we were on vacation, so Hadley had seizures. A lot of them. She is still fucked up from it. It's been 4 days since her last one, and she is still pacing and whining and howling and bumping into things and hardly sleeping or eating. Barking through through the night. She's peed in her crate overnight for the last 3 nights. We will probably call the vet tomorrow. Every time she has an episode, I feel overwhelmed. This is so much stress. I wish I could unload it, and I feel guilty about that, but I am not perfect.
I've always been a cat person, and I love certain things about cats, but I'm starting to think that dogs make better pets. Cats trash everything. They get on the counters and tables and there is cat hair, litter and flea dirt EVERYWHERE. And we only have two cats. I would never have three again. I look at the cat hair all over the kitchen surfaces and on the baby's things, and the litter on the couch, where I lay down, and sometimes think that it's not worth it to have cats. Oakley throws his food everywhere when he eats, too. He's a slob.
Boone is so nice smelling (for a dog) and clean and smart and sweet and healthy... I wish we only had him :-( But I don't know what to do. Can't really rehome Hadley because of her special needs. I could rehome the cats, but I don't know.... I am still kind of attached to Oakley. My parents would have a fit if I rehomed either one of them. They think it's wrong to rehome a cat or dog. My opinion, though, is that if the owner isn't happy, the pet isn't happy. If they aren't getting the attention they deserve....
Ugh. When do you put your happiness over responsibility? The responsible thing is to keep a pet for life, which could be 15 years. But what if I am unhappy with it? I just endure that, because of responsibility? Life is short, and I want to be happy, and if I'm not, then my pets are not, anyway. I want to be selfish. I am tired of having so much responsibility and am desperate to simplify my life, and have a clean feeling house and more relaxation time, which we hardly have any of as of right now.
This is terrible, but sometimes I wish all of my animals, except for maybe Boone, would vanish. I wish I could rehome them. We don't pay enough attention to them. They don't get long walks regularly. I hardly even pet them. When a cat climbs on my lap, I push it off. It makes me feel crowded, and they have fleas and fleas love me. I cannot deal with the fleas. We use Frontline and dust and spray and bathe them once a week. They wear flea collars, too. And we still have fleas. I feel a sting and see them biting me all of the time. It disgusts me. I am covered in bites constantly.
The dogs sleep in crates. I wish I could do away with them because they take up so much space and look like crap in the living room, but I don't want Hadley in the living room unsupervised. She will lay on the couch and she leaks some sort of fluid, which is disgusting. She also has moments of incontinence. Not often, but more often than Boone. If it weren't for Hadley, I'd let Boone roam the house, and probably pay more attention to him (because he is my favorite), but I don't want to be unfair to Hadley, so I don't.
Then there are the seizures. Mom accidentally gave Hadley the wrong medication for the first few days that we were on vacation, so Hadley had seizures. A lot of them. She is still fucked up from it. It's been 4 days since her last one, and she is still pacing and whining and howling and bumping into things and hardly sleeping or eating. Barking through through the night. She's peed in her crate overnight for the last 3 nights. We will probably call the vet tomorrow. Every time she has an episode, I feel overwhelmed. This is so much stress. I wish I could unload it, and I feel guilty about that, but I am not perfect.
I've always been a cat person, and I love certain things about cats, but I'm starting to think that dogs make better pets. Cats trash everything. They get on the counters and tables and there is cat hair, litter and flea dirt EVERYWHERE. And we only have two cats. I would never have three again. I look at the cat hair all over the kitchen surfaces and on the baby's things, and the litter on the couch, where I lay down, and sometimes think that it's not worth it to have cats. Oakley throws his food everywhere when he eats, too. He's a slob.
Boone is so nice smelling (for a dog) and clean and smart and sweet and healthy... I wish we only had him :-( But I don't know what to do. Can't really rehome Hadley because of her special needs. I could rehome the cats, but I don't know.... I am still kind of attached to Oakley. My parents would have a fit if I rehomed either one of them. They think it's wrong to rehome a cat or dog. My opinion, though, is that if the owner isn't happy, the pet isn't happy. If they aren't getting the attention they deserve....
Ugh. When do you put your happiness over responsibility? The responsible thing is to keep a pet for life, which could be 15 years. But what if I am unhappy with it? I just endure that, because of responsibility? Life is short, and I want to be happy, and if I'm not, then my pets are not, anyway. I want to be selfish. I am tired of having so much responsibility and am desperate to simplify my life, and have a clean feeling house and more relaxation time, which we hardly have any of as of right now.