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hello everyone ,
i havent writin to u guys in a very long time .....i guess i just didnt know what to say .ok so im going to tell u all the trueth about everything which is going to leave me guite exposed and feeling naked but anyways i neeed to let everything out so that i dont feel like iv gone into temporary hidding .ok so on like aug.2 i think it was i could be wrong but i just added in my head and i think thats when it was .my FRIEND myles came over well first we walked around winchester and i met his grand mother who also lives in winchester .so anyways we got coffee and we left soon after due to the fact that myles was kindove saying inapropriate things for all of starbucks to hear but anyways he sed y dont we leave before i really imberass myself which i thought was a really good idea .i had told him earlier that my house was across from the town hall actually i think i told his grandmother but anyways he started to walk down my sreet which i definatly had no intention of going to my house but i felt like i couldnt say that he couldnt come in and he had brought a dvd that he wanted to watch anyways .soi gave him the two second tour of my house and then we watched the dvd .ok so he had been bad mouthing lukas the whole day and saying how he was horrible to me and how i deserved better and how he uses girls like me cuz he knows were week and all he has to say is a few nice things and then we fall for him ...this is what myles sed and he sed that guys like him and roberthave class and dont have to do that which i thought was total bullshit since i really dont think myles has class i mean no effence but having the nicest stuff and giving ur girlfriend nice stuff doesnt mean u have class it means ur ritch robert on the other hand dont even get me start that boy has enough class for every guy at highmowing!!ok so anyways back to watching spiderman two-he had got it from an english guy that works in the film bizz or sumthing like that .anyways we watch the movie and he starts sweet talking to me just like he sed lukas did to get me and i was think yeah right this is such crap how fucking stupid does he think i am -i mean jesus!!!ok anyways when the movie was over he wanted to watch another one i really didnt want to but he wanted to watch the sweetest thing and i was like no u dont its a chickflick but we watched it anywways and so like alittle into the movie i go to the bath room when i come back i like sit on the side of the bed and then hes like comehere meggy and like pulls me so that im like resting on him and then he starts to like kiss my head and at this point i make sure im only looking at the movie and not at him.so then he pulls my arm and i turn the wrong way and cubam then i felt so stupid and trapped i didnt know what the hell i was supposed to do so i just kinda sat ther and let him do whatever .he has a completely different story like he told me that lukas sed i didnt do anything and that i was really boring when we were fooling around and myles sed that was bull and that i pulled him ontop of me and that i got ontop of him and that i was sucking on his lips and stuff which i can tell u that that didnt happen and the lip thing sure as hell didnt happen since well iv never done that ever ....ok possibly with lukas but what the hell definatly not with a guy i dont have feelings for!!anyways moving on so afetr wards we were on my porch and like he met my brother and stuff and then he wanted to stay and meet my parents so i staged this whole thing about my grand mother who i actually did call later that day but anyways he left and i dont know he told me not to feel guilty -yeah right !!!and ok this was the weirdest thing i ahddent really cared about the whole lukas thing and i thought i was doing fine i like only cried when i got his letter and that was it.but after me and myles i missed lukas more than anything in the world seriuosly i mean i know it sounds stupid but i just really missed him and like i dont know i guess for the first t ime i relized that it was completely 100% over and that no matter what it could never be the same .anyways i mean i desided i never wanna date lukas again but anyways i just want to be really good friends with him u know.ok anyways so then lydia came to my hous later like a week or so later and i wanted to tell her so bad but i thuoght it wouldbe to weird since she was staying at my house and it would just be awkward....but anyways i wanted to be the first to tell her so i ws gunna tell her the second we got to school but instead myles told her like online or sumthing i was so pissed and he told like mike and stacia and kate to i wanted to fucking kill him !!!anyways so all the things i wanted to do in person i did online like i told lydia my side and apologized she sed she loves me but could never forget that and believe me i will never forget how horricle i ws but anyways andf i told myles i didnt and have never liked him that ways and that hes a good friend but just not like that and he went into this whole thing about how i hurt him and shit and i was like well u fuckin hurt me too and i was the only one who ever was there for u and stuck up for u and he was telling me how i would have to work for his friendship back and i was like whatthe hell no way i dont know y i was that mean but for somereason rhis was like in my head telling me to stick up for myself and i did and it felkt really good.anways thats pretty much all i gatta say cept that i have a random fact -the first time i ever kissed lukas was during second hand lions and colin was during the same movie and then myles was during the sweetest thing -all movies isnt that weird jesus plz someone kiss me not during a movie -please im begging u!!anyways thats all i think im going cell phone shopping with mother later yay and im also writing my letter for deb so i can maybe be and aide----pray for me- i need it
i havent writin to u guys in a very long time .....i guess i just didnt know what to say .ok so im going to tell u all the trueth about everything which is going to leave me guite exposed and feeling naked but anyways i neeed to let everything out so that i dont feel like iv gone into temporary hidding .ok so on like aug.2 i think it was i could be wrong but i just added in my head and i think thats when it was .my FRIEND myles came over well first we walked around winchester and i met his grand mother who also lives in winchester .so anyways we got coffee and we left soon after due to the fact that myles was kindove saying inapropriate things for all of starbucks to hear but anyways he sed y dont we leave before i really imberass myself which i thought was a really good idea .i had told him earlier that my house was across from the town hall actually i think i told his grandmother but anyways he started to walk down my sreet which i definatly had no intention of going to my house but i felt like i couldnt say that he couldnt come in and he had brought a dvd that he wanted to watch anyways .soi gave him the two second tour of my house and then we watched the dvd .ok so he had been bad mouthing lukas the whole day and saying how he was horrible to me and how i deserved better and how he uses girls like me cuz he knows were week and all he has to say is a few nice things and then we fall for him ...this is what myles sed and he sed that guys like him and roberthave class and dont have to do that which i thought was total bullshit since i really dont think myles has class i mean no effence but having the nicest stuff and giving ur girlfriend nice stuff doesnt mean u have class it means ur ritch robert on the other hand dont even get me start that boy has enough class for every guy at highmowing!!ok so anyways back to watching spiderman two-he had got it from an english guy that works in the film bizz or sumthing like that .anyways we watch the movie and he starts sweet talking to me just like he sed lukas did to get me and i was think yeah right this is such crap how fucking stupid does he think i am -i mean jesus!!!ok anyways when the movie was over he wanted to watch another one i really didnt want to but he wanted to watch the sweetest thing and i was like no u dont its a chickflick but we watched it anywways and so like alittle into the movie i go to the bath room when i come back i like sit on the side of the bed and then hes like comehere meggy and like pulls me so that im like resting on him and then he starts to like kiss my head and at this point i make sure im only looking at the movie and not at him.so then he pulls my arm and i turn the wrong way and cubam then i felt so stupid and trapped i didnt know what the hell i was supposed to do so i just kinda sat ther and let him do whatever .he has a completely different story like he told me that lukas sed i didnt do anything and that i was really boring when we were fooling around and myles sed that was bull and that i pulled him ontop of me and that i got ontop of him and that i was sucking on his lips and stuff which i can tell u that that didnt happen and the lip thing sure as hell didnt happen since well iv never done that ever ....ok possibly with lukas but what the hell definatly not with a guy i dont have feelings for!!anyways moving on so afetr wards we were on my porch and like he met my brother and stuff and then he wanted to stay and meet my parents so i staged this whole thing about my grand mother who i actually did call later that day but anyways he left and i dont know he told me not to feel guilty -yeah right !!!and ok this was the weirdest thing i ahddent really cared about the whole lukas thing and i thought i was doing fine i like only cried when i got his letter and that was it.but after me and myles i missed lukas more than anything in the world seriuosly i mean i know it sounds stupid but i just really missed him and like i dont know i guess for the first t ime i relized that it was completely 100% over and that no matter what it could never be the same .anyways i mean i desided i never wanna date lukas again but anyways i just want to be really good friends with him u know.ok anyways so then lydia came to my hous later like a week or so later and i wanted to tell her so bad but i thuoght it wouldbe to weird since she was staying at my house and it would just be awkward....but anyways i wanted to be the first to tell her so i ws gunna tell her the second we got to school but instead myles told her like online or sumthing i was so pissed and he told like mike and stacia and kate to i wanted to fucking kill him !!!anyways so all the things i wanted to do in person i did online like i told lydia my side and apologized she sed she loves me but could never forget that and believe me i will never forget how horricle i ws but anyways andf i told myles i didnt and have never liked him that ways and that hes a good friend but just not like that and he went into this whole thing about how i hurt him and shit and i was like well u fuckin hurt me too and i was the only one who ever was there for u and stuck up for u and he was telling me how i would have to work for his friendship back and i was like whatthe hell no way i dont know y i was that mean but for somereason rhis was like in my head telling me to stick up for myself and i did and it felkt really good.anways thats pretty much all i gatta say cept that i have a random fact -the first time i ever kissed lukas was during second hand lions and colin was during the same movie and then myles was during the sweetest thing -all movies isnt that weird jesus plz someone kiss me not during a movie -please im begging u!!anyways thats all i think im going cell phone shopping with mother later yay and im also writing my letter for deb so i can maybe be and aide----pray for me- i need it