ugggggggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that's how i feel today...well let's see i have toa take my math test over again b/c i missed it by one point...then i had to come home to a really annoying asshole!!!(that would be my dad i hate him!)...then my stomache has been hurting all day and it was yesterday too...and tomrw i have a speeding ticket to pay for!!! so much fun!!!!
and well i am really really rady to move out...oh and one more thing that is just grrreatt...i really really like someone that i use to date and now wew are "just friends" and it really sucks b/c i still like him a lot and still have all the same feelings for him that i did before...why am i such a freaking idiot??? i should just let it go but i dont want to!!!!
Andrea do you know what i should do? I mean about Ray...i'm scared to tell him how i feel b/c i dont want to lose him as a friend...i guess just having him as a friend is just not enough..b/c i want to kiss him sooooo bad!!!! I mean it drives me crazy that he wont kiss me when we are together...and man i flirt with him like freaking crazy!!!!! He flirts too...he has kissed me on the cheek and gave me hugs...but no real kiss!!! I'm sad!!!I dont know what to do...i guess i cant do anything...i guess that there is nothing that i can do b/c if i do and it doesnt turn out the way i want it too then i'm screwed and i will lose him agian..b/c i'm an idiot..see last time i quit talking to him..it was my fault...and i dont want t odo that again...i really do want to be with him...i hate that i realize that now...when i could still be with him...but i dont know what t odo...guess i will just be without him..uggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont't know!!!!!!!!!!!