What the Professor says, goes...
I'm sitting here about to jump off a ledge. A ledge I haven't even seen in years. What is this ledge, you may ask? Well, it's the ledge that overlooks the fanfic abyss.
Yes, that's right. I'm writing fanfic. Well, I'm trying to. I haven't touched (or even really read) fanfic since the Alias days. What the what?
Earlier, I was having a mini-stroke over this. It's not the writing part -- I've written lots in the last few years -- it's the FANFIC part. I know I can write. I know these characters (Otalia -- what else? Heh.) quite well, and I'm fairly certain that I can get into their heads and honor them properly. I have the entire story mapped out. To the point that my fic is going to address a few pivotal problems that I've seen the fans (myself, included) having with this wonderful story. (Yes, for that? Fanfic is a thing of beauty. Heee.) So what's my problem?
The more I think about this, the more I realize that my issues stem from the fact that in a weird way, I put fanfic on a pedestal. For as much bad fic as there is out there, I came to view myself as a writer because of fic. I've written since high school, but never thought of myself as an actual writer until Alias. And it was only after much, MUCH prodding from some great friends that I actually uttered the words, "I am a writer". I agonized over what I wrote (many can attest to this, heh) in part because I am a perfectionist and in part because if I actually get to the point of writing fic, it means that I love the characters so damn much and want to take them on a journey, but really don't want to fuck them up. Character is everything, after all. So, yeah. For me? On a personal level? Fic is sort of iconic. And just writing that statement makes me realize beyond a shadow of a doubt what a GINORMOUS geek I am. Heh.
Not that I've ever doubted it, but I just need to say... krisnreine is a fantabulous person. Because tonight? Not only did she let me squee/ freak out/ ask for a 'print' button for my brain/ rant and rave, but she did all of that while knowing NOTHING about Otalia. She really is the best. Actually, I think she might be a saint. A smutty, insane, whacktastic saint, but a saint nonetheless. ;-) And she's a very good professor too -- lots of great homework-y ideas. Thanks, babe! *gothicbluesqueeeeeeeeeezies*
Okay, that's enough rambling. I think my psyche is somewhat settled. Now, I'm going to listen to "Professor Peaches" and get my ass to work.
Yeah, that's what I'm going to do. *wanders off*
Yes, that's right. I'm writing fanfic. Well, I'm trying to. I haven't touched (or even really read) fanfic since the Alias days. What the what?
Earlier, I was having a mini-stroke over this. It's not the writing part -- I've written lots in the last few years -- it's the FANFIC part. I know I can write. I know these characters (Otalia -- what else? Heh.) quite well, and I'm fairly certain that I can get into their heads and honor them properly. I have the entire story mapped out. To the point that my fic is going to address a few pivotal problems that I've seen the fans (myself, included) having with this wonderful story. (Yes, for that? Fanfic is a thing of beauty. Heee.) So what's my problem?
The more I think about this, the more I realize that my issues stem from the fact that in a weird way, I put fanfic on a pedestal. For as much bad fic as there is out there, I came to view myself as a writer because of fic. I've written since high school, but never thought of myself as an actual writer until Alias. And it was only after much, MUCH prodding from some great friends that I actually uttered the words, "I am a writer". I agonized over what I wrote (many can attest to this, heh) in part because I am a perfectionist and in part because if I actually get to the point of writing fic, it means that I love the characters so damn much and want to take them on a journey, but really don't want to fuck them up. Character is everything, after all. So, yeah. For me? On a personal level? Fic is sort of iconic. And just writing that statement makes me realize beyond a shadow of a doubt what a GINORMOUS geek I am. Heh.
Not that I've ever doubted it, but I just need to say... krisnreine is a fantabulous person. Because tonight? Not only did she let me squee/ freak out/ ask for a 'print' button for my brain/ rant and rave, but she did all of that while knowing NOTHING about Otalia. She really is the best. Actually, I think she might be a saint. A smutty, insane, whacktastic saint, but a saint nonetheless. ;-) And she's a very good professor too -- lots of great homework-y ideas. Thanks, babe! *gothicbluesqueeeeeeeeeezies*
Okay, that's enough rambling. I think my psyche is somewhat settled. Now, I'm going to listen to "Professor Peaches" and get my ass to work.
Yeah, that's what I'm going to do. *wanders off*