pooness
I don't get it... i don't try to be a nasty person, don't consider myself nasty or anything, but why do i still get people going behind my back- or well to be honest quite openly- calling me a bitch? I really don't get why... just cause I won't put up with them being twats, or i'm loyal to my mates n stuff like that.. jeez. It was an alright night until those guys turned off the speaker...ffs if you don't like karaoke then don't come in a fucking karaoke pub. so i nearly caused a fight with them cos I wasn't happy with them bein twats. then a friend fucked me off by grabbin the mike when i was singing and i flipped out n slapped him. I mean to be honest what a stupid thing to slap someone over. a fucking song, it wasn't that important at all! just in a really really low mood tonight and shouldn't have been drinking at all. Instead I drank and really stupidly, mixing cider and wine and shots and spirits. It was better when i was poor and couldn't drink, i wouldn't have got into trouble then. now it looks like i might not make class tomorrow- and needed to make class all week its the last one! will be shot for missing another class bugger. jeez what is wrong with me... I've been in a low mood for two days, i can't shift it... feel like going to the doc and just breaking down, but ffs, it's only been two--well not even two days really-- of lowness, i should be able to snap myself out of it easy peasy. grr. need to throw myself into all these millions of essays. stressssssssssssssss woo . money stress essay stress... least there's no boy stress or nowt. oh no now i remember. why is it that all these "arrangements" that tide you over when you're inbetween relationships are always on the male's terms? like if the guy is horny, and wants some...hell yes you're in there baby and if the girl don't wanna give well tough luck, cos the boy wants some. but if the girl wants it, when the boys not asked for it, oh no that can never happen. god forbid that a girl could want anything. that a girl could want to meet up or want the company. FFS