miss you forever
to add to all that has been going on...thursday after class my mom called saying she needed tony to drive me my sister and brother to marysville...my mom had been there at the hospital since tuesday and my grandpa wasn;t getting any better so they told my mom and grandma to gather the family
we were all there to say good bye even tony went in to say his goodbyes (only ever meeting him once) my gandpa's body was filing up with toxins so he couldn't say anything but he put tony and my hands together and held them really tight.
friday as i was getting out of the shower at my grandparents house getting ready to go see him again my mom called saying he passed away a minute before she got there. i was in shock until i went out of the bathroom seeing his pictures and things all over the house...all the memories flooding my mind i couldn't stop crying and i went into a fit trying to hide his things so my grandmother wouldn't have to see them when she went home.
that's all i've been able to think about is how alone she must feel now she was still holding his lifeless hand and kissing his forehead when i got there. god this must be hard for her, just seeing their cat again made her break down crying.
I love you grandpa. You were more thn just a grandparent to me you were the father in my life because mine was never around. You were my advice giver and my comfort from the world. I miss you more than anything right now, no more stories, no more dominoes, no more creep-mouse, no more fishing, no more talks, no more hugs, no more kisse. I am sorry you never lived to see me do something with my life but I promise you I will. You always told me I was beautiful smart and kind, and because of those things I meant to do something great with my life...I will. At least I know the cancer doesn't hurt anymore, you tried to keep your composure through it all because style and grace was your way. Give aunt Sidney a kiss for me and grandma too, I would have loved to have met her, you always said I looked like her.
Love you forever,
your Princess
(love you forever my baby you'll be... I remember)
we were all there to say good bye even tony went in to say his goodbyes (only ever meeting him once) my gandpa's body was filing up with toxins so he couldn't say anything but he put tony and my hands together and held them really tight.
friday as i was getting out of the shower at my grandparents house getting ready to go see him again my mom called saying he passed away a minute before she got there. i was in shock until i went out of the bathroom seeing his pictures and things all over the house...all the memories flooding my mind i couldn't stop crying and i went into a fit trying to hide his things so my grandmother wouldn't have to see them when she went home.
that's all i've been able to think about is how alone she must feel now she was still holding his lifeless hand and kissing his forehead when i got there. god this must be hard for her, just seeing their cat again made her break down crying.
I love you grandpa. You were more thn just a grandparent to me you were the father in my life because mine was never around. You were my advice giver and my comfort from the world. I miss you more than anything right now, no more stories, no more dominoes, no more creep-mouse, no more fishing, no more talks, no more hugs, no more kisse. I am sorry you never lived to see me do something with my life but I promise you I will. You always told me I was beautiful smart and kind, and because of those things I meant to do something great with my life...I will. At least I know the cancer doesn't hurt anymore, you tried to keep your composure through it all because style and grace was your way. Give aunt Sidney a kiss for me and grandma too, I would have loved to have met her, you always said I looked like her.
Love you forever,
your Princess
(love you forever my baby you'll be... I remember)