On my mind
I've been thinking a lot lately, and over the past 7 months or so, I've come to realize I had totally misjudged a few people. People I thought were good people, only to find out just how wrong I was. It makes me wonder about everyone else. Makes me second guess everyone. I had given people the benefit of the doubt even when everyone around me was constantly pointing out the warning signs. I believed that if they wanted to, they could be good people. I believed in them, and now I feel like a fool. I helped them get jobs, relationships, things that would hopefully make them happy. I did what I could when I could, and they have left me feeling like an idiot for ever believing in them. I'm not only talking about the obvious, there have been more subtle things that have made me stop and question some of these things.
It's not a good feeling to have, wondering about all the people in your life, whether they are genuine and decent people, or if they have alterior motives and are using you to get what they want in life.
The other thing bothering me lately is unappreciative people. If you are nice to them, and accommodate them, they start thinking this is how it should be, and that is how it always will be. But when you get to the point where you've had enough, and feel taken advantage of, so they you do something about it, all of a sudden you're the bad guy? That doesn't make any sense to me. Instead of thinking how nice the person has been to you over the past, and thinking ok fine, this is reasonable, you spaz out, get all bent out of shape, and start trashing the person to everyone you can think of talking to. Sue did this this morning to me about my dad, and unfortunately, she hasn't been the only one to take this approach to my family lately. It kills me, makes me wonder what the point in ever being nice to anyone is, if all you will get when you say no is attitude and verbal and/or physical abuse.
It's a fucked up world we live in I tell you.
It's not a good feeling to have, wondering about all the people in your life, whether they are genuine and decent people, or if they have alterior motives and are using you to get what they want in life.
The other thing bothering me lately is unappreciative people. If you are nice to them, and accommodate them, they start thinking this is how it should be, and that is how it always will be. But when you get to the point where you've had enough, and feel taken advantage of, so they you do something about it, all of a sudden you're the bad guy? That doesn't make any sense to me. Instead of thinking how nice the person has been to you over the past, and thinking ok fine, this is reasonable, you spaz out, get all bent out of shape, and start trashing the person to everyone you can think of talking to. Sue did this this morning to me about my dad, and unfortunately, she hasn't been the only one to take this approach to my family lately. It kills me, makes me wonder what the point in ever being nice to anyone is, if all you will get when you say no is attitude and verbal and/or physical abuse.
It's a fucked up world we live in I tell you.