I feel like I have nothing to say...
I didn't get to have a fun New Jersey weekend like everyone else because I was stuck at home, sick, with Strep throat. I wish that I would have been able to go because it sounded like so much fun! Oh well - next time. I got to chill out and take it easy and recover - I slept until 5 pm on Saturday!
Nothing is really new. Work is good, school is okay. I started getting a little worried
about school yesterday because I sat down to finish this essay that is due tonight, and I just couldn't stop procrastinating! I kept going online and doing different things, cleaning some stuff, etc. It's the same old behavior. And then before I knew it, I felt too tired to write it and I was stuck in a situation where I'd waited until the last possible minute to finish my work, feeling totally overwhelmed, and like I wanted to die. Now I'm only taking one class, and if I can feel that overwhelmed from English 101, then how am I supposed to be able to handle a full course load AND work? It just really worries me - like, am I ever going to be disciplined enough and have what it takes to give school all I've got and really do well? I want to with all of my heart, but I'm scared that I might not be there yet? I just feel really discouraged that it's only the 4th week of school and I'm already slipping into this. On a positive note, I ended up finishing it, and realized that the essay really wasn't as bad/as hard as I was making it out to be. I still have some reading left to do though, which I'm going to have to cram into the few minutes between getting to school and class starting. That should be fun. Yeah unmanagability!!! :( I really don't want to be this way anymore.
Anyway, everything else is great. Tonight I get to hang with my mitt, Erik, and we're going to lay in a bed and watch the brand new Curb Your Enthusiasm episode. I'm excited! I love that show - it's so funny.
Okay, I guess that's all for now.
Nothing is really new. Work is good, school is okay. I started getting a little worried
about school yesterday because I sat down to finish this essay that is due tonight, and I just couldn't stop procrastinating! I kept going online and doing different things, cleaning some stuff, etc. It's the same old behavior. And then before I knew it, I felt too tired to write it and I was stuck in a situation where I'd waited until the last possible minute to finish my work, feeling totally overwhelmed, and like I wanted to die. Now I'm only taking one class, and if I can feel that overwhelmed from English 101, then how am I supposed to be able to handle a full course load AND work? It just really worries me - like, am I ever going to be disciplined enough and have what it takes to give school all I've got and really do well? I want to with all of my heart, but I'm scared that I might not be there yet? I just feel really discouraged that it's only the 4th week of school and I'm already slipping into this. On a positive note, I ended up finishing it, and realized that the essay really wasn't as bad/as hard as I was making it out to be. I still have some reading left to do though, which I'm going to have to cram into the few minutes between getting to school and class starting. That should be fun. Yeah unmanagability!!! :( I really don't want to be this way anymore.
Anyway, everything else is great. Tonight I get to hang with my mitt, Erik, and we're going to lay in a bed and watch the brand new Curb Your Enthusiasm episode. I'm excited! I love that show - it's so funny.
Okay, I guess that's all for now.