My job; why am I not designing?; Animazement plans; Other news.
Again it's been a long time since the last update. So what, I'm a procrastinator! Let's get this exceedingly long entry underway, guys...
I'm still working for my parents. I haven't done anything related to Graphic Design aside from a few pro bono works for my parents' church. I'm supposed to be re-working a lot of forms for the dealership but I just lack the will to do anything except read Japanese comics when I get home.
I'm excited about Graphic Design and everything, I just think I'm afraid to get started. I'm excited about Graphic Design and everything, I just think I'm afraid to get started. I tell myself "Well, if I want to be a designer I have to have a good portfolio! If I want to have a good portfolio, I have to have the Adobe Suite! If I want to run the Adobe Suite I need a good gaming rig to be able to run it!" All of that stuff is expensive too, and on my Burger King style wages it will be a LONG time in coming for me to get it all. Am I trying to sabotage myself here? I could do SOME design using my copy of InDesign on here (despite how laggy it is, thanks terrible RAM) but I'm just too lazy to get a move on it. I don't know why I think a new rig and programs would catapult me into production.
Seriously, though -- I feel like my portfolio is too small and too dated (and too amateur) for who I am now. I was attempting some design things on CrowdSpring but I got way too intimidated by some of the other designers on there and didn't have good ideas for what projects were on there. Aside from the lazy part, I don't have as much time as I used to and I prefer to use all of my "not work" time to just sit around and do nothing. Of course, nothing produces nothing.
There are things I have to do, things I am in the process of doing, but I am not doing them. I am not drawing art for DeviantART (don't ask), I am not designing those damn forms for the dealership, and I am not doing any OTHER design to build up my journeyman-style portfolio. I just get home and I want to read and sleep. These things are there, they lurk in the background of my "Oh god, I have to do that" list, and I just ignore them. I read some comics, check LJ, and play Farmville. I have no motivation to finish any of this.
That's not getting me a job and I'm going to need one.
I mean, my parents are talking that this next month, Jacob and I are going to go apartment hunting. Now, I don't know about you all but I doubt even two people making $7.50 an hour (okay, I make $7.50, he makes base salary and commission) can hold down an apartment. We both need to get better jobs but if they're shoving us out already (expecting that we have a lot saved up -- I don't, Jacob does) I guess that's the motivator in itself.
After all, I don't think we'll like living off of Cup Ramen and having sleeping bags for beds in said apartment. Low pay versus apartment rent would be a good springboard for us to find better jobs. Maybe. Hopefully. Ah god, please! Perhaps that's why they're doing it this way. Good idea, Mom, very good idea.
In less depressing news, since I actually am making money again I am attempting to make Animazement this year. My parents expressed concern that I'd be driving by myself to Raleigh (state capital, just FYI) on, of all weekends, Memorial Day Weekend but I think I can handle the drive. My plan is to drive to my buddy's house. The drive to his house is 99.9% interstate and highway driving (which is less "OH GOD!" than twisty downtown city roads) and then a little turn into a backwater residential part of Raleigh. It's two and a half hours of interstate, exactly the time it took to drive to my university! It's also 99.9% interstate/highway driving just like when I drove to university.
Anyway, we're planning to make a good weekend out of it -- on Friday he plans to take me to a local Rocky Horror Picture Show production, on Saturday we're going to the con, and on Sunday I'll maybe swing by the con a bit to do any last minute shopping and to see the lolita panel at 11:00am (I haven't ever seen a brand dress and I kind of want to see lolitas, especially soniabunny who I didn't know lived in my state!) Maybe he and I'll hang out on Sunday and do something else, I don't know. All I know is that I want to be headed back before the sun starts to set on Sunday.
Uh, what else can I tell you guys? Oh here's something cool: While driving to town to get groceries I actually saw a man drag roadkill off the highway to (presumably) eat it. It freaked me out a little. The roadkill was some kind of bird (black feathers that had white borders?) I think. I have heard of this practice before, but that was my first time seeing it. Oh, life in the South!
I've been to a lot of graduation parties this month. I actually went to my Aunt Kathy's this past weekend, which was a lackluster affair. There was a small party, followed by a lot of talking and then nothing. The next day was a sort of re-graduation (for the families who missed it on Thursday?) and then we went home. Boring. I'm hoping Leah's culinary school graduation is a lot more boss this weekend... it's going to be held in an ampitheatre in Charlotte and afterwards we're going to CHEESECAKE FACTORY D:!
Okay, that's enough. I'm done.
-Jessica
I'm still working for my parents. I haven't done anything related to Graphic Design aside from a few pro bono works for my parents' church. I'm supposed to be re-working a lot of forms for the dealership but I just lack the will to do anything except read Japanese comics when I get home.
I'm excited about Graphic Design and everything, I just think I'm afraid to get started. I'm excited about Graphic Design and everything, I just think I'm afraid to get started. I tell myself "Well, if I want to be a designer I have to have a good portfolio! If I want to have a good portfolio, I have to have the Adobe Suite! If I want to run the Adobe Suite I need a good gaming rig to be able to run it!" All of that stuff is expensive too, and on my Burger King style wages it will be a LONG time in coming for me to get it all. Am I trying to sabotage myself here? I could do SOME design using my copy of InDesign on here (despite how laggy it is, thanks terrible RAM) but I'm just too lazy to get a move on it. I don't know why I think a new rig and programs would catapult me into production.
Seriously, though -- I feel like my portfolio is too small and too dated (and too amateur) for who I am now. I was attempting some design things on CrowdSpring but I got way too intimidated by some of the other designers on there and didn't have good ideas for what projects were on there. Aside from the lazy part, I don't have as much time as I used to and I prefer to use all of my "not work" time to just sit around and do nothing. Of course, nothing produces nothing.
There are things I have to do, things I am in the process of doing, but I am not doing them. I am not drawing art for DeviantART (don't ask), I am not designing those damn forms for the dealership, and I am not doing any OTHER design to build up my journeyman-style portfolio. I just get home and I want to read and sleep. These things are there, they lurk in the background of my "Oh god, I have to do that" list, and I just ignore them. I read some comics, check LJ, and play Farmville. I have no motivation to finish any of this.
That's not getting me a job and I'm going to need one.
I mean, my parents are talking that this next month, Jacob and I are going to go apartment hunting. Now, I don't know about you all but I doubt even two people making $7.50 an hour (okay, I make $7.50, he makes base salary and commission) can hold down an apartment. We both need to get better jobs but if they're shoving us out already (expecting that we have a lot saved up -- I don't, Jacob does) I guess that's the motivator in itself.
After all, I don't think we'll like living off of Cup Ramen and having sleeping bags for beds in said apartment. Low pay versus apartment rent would be a good springboard for us to find better jobs. Maybe. Hopefully. Ah god, please! Perhaps that's why they're doing it this way. Good idea, Mom, very good idea.
In less depressing news, since I actually am making money again I am attempting to make Animazement this year. My parents expressed concern that I'd be driving by myself to Raleigh (state capital, just FYI) on, of all weekends, Memorial Day Weekend but I think I can handle the drive. My plan is to drive to my buddy's house. The drive to his house is 99.9% interstate and highway driving (which is less "OH GOD!" than twisty downtown city roads) and then a little turn into a backwater residential part of Raleigh. It's two and a half hours of interstate, exactly the time it took to drive to my university! It's also 99.9% interstate/highway driving just like when I drove to university.
Anyway, we're planning to make a good weekend out of it -- on Friday he plans to take me to a local Rocky Horror Picture Show production, on Saturday we're going to the con, and on Sunday I'll maybe swing by the con a bit to do any last minute shopping and to see the lolita panel at 11:00am (I haven't ever seen a brand dress and I kind of want to see lolitas, especially soniabunny who I didn't know lived in my state!) Maybe he and I'll hang out on Sunday and do something else, I don't know. All I know is that I want to be headed back before the sun starts to set on Sunday.
Uh, what else can I tell you guys? Oh here's something cool: While driving to town to get groceries I actually saw a man drag roadkill off the highway to (presumably) eat it. It freaked me out a little. The roadkill was some kind of bird (black feathers that had white borders?) I think. I have heard of this practice before, but that was my first time seeing it. Oh, life in the South!
I've been to a lot of graduation parties this month. I actually went to my Aunt Kathy's this past weekend, which was a lackluster affair. There was a small party, followed by a lot of talking and then nothing. The next day was a sort of re-graduation (for the families who missed it on Thursday?) and then we went home. Boring. I'm hoping Leah's culinary school graduation is a lot more boss this weekend... it's going to be held in an ampitheatre in Charlotte and afterwards we're going to CHEESECAKE FACTORY D:!
Okay, that's enough. I'm done.
-Jessica