I've lately preferred my coffee black... odd.

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I never used to like black coffee, but now I find that I would rather not put anything in it, and just drink it plain. At any rate, it's probably less-bad plain, so I suppose that's not a problem really. I just find it interesting.

I came to the conclusion a few hours ago that I am lacking some serious motivation to do anything that involves any sort of effort. I'm frustrated that I can't find a job, and I've probably filled out about 20 applications, give or take a few. Once that amounted to nothing, I haven't really had the motivation to do anything of any sort. I feel frustrated because I don't have anything to get up for every day, when in all reality there are plenty of things that need to be done aside from the endless job search. For instance:

• Pick up my room
• Go through my storage and get rid of stuff
• Bring the clothes that I sorted out to Goodwill
• Clean the bathroom, cause we all know it needs it
• Practice instruments
• Organize music for worship team
• Organize my finances in a greater depth
• Exercise (which I have been slacking on)
• Make an effort to actually cook a meal instead of zap one in the microwave
• Take my brother somewhere special
• Spend more time reading my Bible
• Read a book
• Go visit someone that I don't see very often, or call an old friend
• Call my grandparents more often
• Visit my grandparents
• Scope out the Forest Lake apartment scene
• Go get the stuff from Andrew so I can work from home

See? Plenty of things I could be doing. Yet I spend so much time on this freaking machine. I really need to get off of this and start doing something. What can I say? Old habits die hard. I have been kicking some old habits to the curb though, which is good.

My point is really that I need to get off this dang computer and go and accomplish something in my waiting for a job.