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This is addressed to a few people...
I realized that I have too many problems with being nonconfrontational, and I need to change that in order to stand up for myself and not let others use or take advantage of me. It's not that I'm bipolar, it's just that I always keep everything to myself and sometimes it gets the better of me and I lose my temper. The reason why I have trouble holding onto friendships and relationships is because I never open my mouth to speak when necessary and when I do, I ruin everything. I don't mean to be a bitch, I don't mean to hurt anyone, and in fact, I miss the friendships and relationships that I have lost.
I have hurt people, and they have hurt me just as bad. I loathe them, and yet I miss them because of the good times we used to have. The only thing I have to hold onto now are memories, but good ones. There's no point in going back to the past, because everything has changed, I have changed, I'm sure they have changed and there's nothing to do but to accept it. This is addressed to a few people out there, and if you do have beef with me or dislike me for some reason, then I am talking about you.
I'm so sorry that things are the way they are. I'm sorry things had to be this way..I never would have known that it would come to this. Unfortunately, if I had to do it all over again, I doubt I would have been able to change a thing because if I kept my mouth shut, I'd be digging a deeper hole and continuing to live a lie. In my own dreamworld, everything would be how they used to be..but we have all moved on. I don't know what to say..take it for what it is..
<3 Heather
I realized that I have too many problems with being nonconfrontational, and I need to change that in order to stand up for myself and not let others use or take advantage of me. It's not that I'm bipolar, it's just that I always keep everything to myself and sometimes it gets the better of me and I lose my temper. The reason why I have trouble holding onto friendships and relationships is because I never open my mouth to speak when necessary and when I do, I ruin everything. I don't mean to be a bitch, I don't mean to hurt anyone, and in fact, I miss the friendships and relationships that I have lost.
I have hurt people, and they have hurt me just as bad. I loathe them, and yet I miss them because of the good times we used to have. The only thing I have to hold onto now are memories, but good ones. There's no point in going back to the past, because everything has changed, I have changed, I'm sure they have changed and there's nothing to do but to accept it. This is addressed to a few people out there, and if you do have beef with me or dislike me for some reason, then I am talking about you.
I'm so sorry that things are the way they are. I'm sorry things had to be this way..I never would have known that it would come to this. Unfortunately, if I had to do it all over again, I doubt I would have been able to change a thing because if I kept my mouth shut, I'd be digging a deeper hole and continuing to live a lie. In my own dreamworld, everything would be how they used to be..but we have all moved on. I don't know what to say..take it for what it is..
<3 Heather