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[queencor]

Either I'm hallucinating, or I saw someone I shouldn't.

When I was out, I saw Gunn. Charles Gunn. My friend. My dead friend.

And he was there, and looking good, and just having lunch alone.All I could do was stand there. I stared, with this feeling washing over me like I couldn't breathe. Like I'd been tossed into frigid water. It was a nice day, but for a few minutes there I didn't notice anything but him. I could have been hit by a car and wouldn't have noticed.

I want it to be real. But..if it is then why hasn't he come back? Where is he? Where did he go? I'd been about to make my feet move to go talk to him and he left...looked like he wasn't very happy. God, I'm so stupid, why didn't I move faster? Why did I just stand there and stare like a moron? What's wrong with me?

It was him...I know that. It wasn't just looks, he walked the same, he ate the same...it was him. It was all him.

And now I have to find him. I have to look, and find him, and bring him home, or...or something. I don't know. But I have to find him.

God I hope I'm not crazy.