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There are a lot of reasons why people's use of L.J. have been petering out; it hit me recently that in my case, I've simply not been doing much of anything, lately, that I feel I need to tell people about.
Part of that is probably for good reasons -- I used to crave a lot more attention and affirmation. But some maturity, some good support from friends and loved ones -- even though a couple of them aren't in my wake any more -- did a lot to take care of that. So that's good.
But...part of that is also because of a couple years of just plain inertia. To be honest, the last couple years were kind of rough -- I got hit with four sucker punches one after the other: first a major breakup, then losing my job, then finally getting my job but losing 2 hours of sleep every night, then losing my cat. I makes total sense that for most of last year I only had just enough energy to come home from work and stare at the TV.
But it's time to snap out of that a little.
A couple Januaries ago, Colin and I joked that our New Year's Resolution that year should be "we will be less lame". But we didn't really get into the specifics of what that would entail. So I'm going to revive that, but get a bit more detailed with it:
1. I'm going to try things that make me fall back in love with New York again.
....Seriously, I live in New York City. I work for a place that gives me a corporate membership to nearly every museum in this city, and I also have memberships to the Brooklyn Botanic Garden and to BAM. And I am using NONE of them often enough. I also live within a half hour's bike ride of an enormous park, a fifteen-minute bike ride from a classic bridge, and an hour's subway ride from the best roller coaster in the world. I could concievably have a weekend where I start the day waking up in an actual full-on campsite, and that same evening could be at a full-on opera -- without leaving town, and would still have ample time in between to not only change clothes, but actually shop for them. I may have been too wiped out for doing much this past year, but it's criminal that I'm still doing it.
And speaking of clothing:
2. I'm going to buy some really good lingerie. No, REALLY good lingerie.
As in, full-on, clothing-designers-measure-me-six-ways-and-pick-out-the-absolute-best-bra-for-me lingerie. I'm used to skimping in this area -- I was kind of...petite in that area when I was younger, and just got used to them not having my size anyway because I was so small so why bother. But that was when I was a skinny kid in my 20's. Age has not only brought more weight...it has brought more boob. It's time to flaunt it now that I actually have something to flaunt.
3. Writing class. That's just obvious.
4. Nightly ritual. I'll have two this year -- I got my aunt a fun five-year journal this year, and in impulse got one for myself too. It's only going to have room for one line a night -- but that'll be fine. Also, I've decided to start work on a unique knitting project -- knitting a single stripe in a scarf each day, color-coded depending on what the weather was like. That will also get me to be more observant of the world around me, in a good way -- also something I sorely need, I think. And hey, pretty striped scarf when I'm done!
So there it is. Less lameness in 2012.
Part of that is probably for good reasons -- I used to crave a lot more attention and affirmation. But some maturity, some good support from friends and loved ones -- even though a couple of them aren't in my wake any more -- did a lot to take care of that. So that's good.
But...part of that is also because of a couple years of just plain inertia. To be honest, the last couple years were kind of rough -- I got hit with four sucker punches one after the other: first a major breakup, then losing my job, then finally getting my job but losing 2 hours of sleep every night, then losing my cat. I makes total sense that for most of last year I only had just enough energy to come home from work and stare at the TV.
But it's time to snap out of that a little.
A couple Januaries ago, Colin and I joked that our New Year's Resolution that year should be "we will be less lame". But we didn't really get into the specifics of what that would entail. So I'm going to revive that, but get a bit more detailed with it:
1. I'm going to try things that make me fall back in love with New York again.
....Seriously, I live in New York City. I work for a place that gives me a corporate membership to nearly every museum in this city, and I also have memberships to the Brooklyn Botanic Garden and to BAM. And I am using NONE of them often enough. I also live within a half hour's bike ride of an enormous park, a fifteen-minute bike ride from a classic bridge, and an hour's subway ride from the best roller coaster in the world. I could concievably have a weekend where I start the day waking up in an actual full-on campsite, and that same evening could be at a full-on opera -- without leaving town, and would still have ample time in between to not only change clothes, but actually shop for them. I may have been too wiped out for doing much this past year, but it's criminal that I'm still doing it.
And speaking of clothing:
2. I'm going to buy some really good lingerie. No, REALLY good lingerie.
As in, full-on, clothing-designers-measure-me-six-ways-and-pick-out-the-absolute-best-bra-for-me lingerie. I'm used to skimping in this area -- I was kind of...petite in that area when I was younger, and just got used to them not having my size anyway because I was so small so why bother. But that was when I was a skinny kid in my 20's. Age has not only brought more weight...it has brought more boob. It's time to flaunt it now that I actually have something to flaunt.
3. Writing class. That's just obvious.
4. Nightly ritual. I'll have two this year -- I got my aunt a fun five-year journal this year, and in impulse got one for myself too. It's only going to have room for one line a night -- but that'll be fine. Also, I've decided to start work on a unique knitting project -- knitting a single stripe in a scarf each day, color-coded depending on what the weather was like. That will also get me to be more observant of the world around me, in a good way -- also something I sorely need, I think. And hey, pretty striped scarf when I'm done!
So there it is. Less lameness in 2012.