So much going through my head
Well it has only been a matter of a few minutes since I updated this place. I just have a lot of things going on in my head. So I need to get it out. Lets start at the beginning. As I said in my last post I am not married which means I am all grown up and shit. Well with being all grown up comes little ones. My oldest is 5, he will be going to kindergarten this fall. I am not old enough to have a 5 year old that is looking at starting kindergarten. I feel old!!!!!!!!
The other thing on my mind is my best friend, you know him well as he has made many appearances here on my LJ. Yep he is none other then Door Greeter Josh. Well he is no longer a door greeter and well he is MUCH more grown up and less hairy then before. For the past 7 almost 8 years he has been living in one place. He is making a big step in life and as a person of not liking a lot of change at one time. I am not sure what I feel about this. He is moving from his current apartment in Minneapolis to an apartment in San Jose. On one hand I am excited to see him move and grow and make a better life for himself, but on the other hand this is an end of an era. There were many night spent hanging out in his current apartment. Many secrets shared as well as many good times. I know it is only an apartment but that is where much of the good times were shared, and where I went to retreat when I was in my deepest of moods. He was always willing to welcome me in no matter when it was. It was also my hide out from my parents that were over bearing as well as a place to spread my wings and soar. It was this apartment and Josh that me through a very tough and long separation with my fiancé, now husband.(10 months total, He was in Idaho and I was still in WI/MN)
Now we are at the end of an era, Josh is moving on to bigger and better adventures. I am proud of him for trying to make a better life for him, but I feel like my safe haven from so many years ago is being taken from me. I no longer need it and in fact, I have not been to it for many years. It was always in the back of my mind that I could if I needed it. He is now moving, which is good for him
I now have my own safe haven with my husband and kids, but even through I never really was on the lease, that is where this solid friendship I have was really formed.
I know no matter where he is living he will always be part of my life. He will also be part of my children’s lives for many years to come. He is a much better uncle to my children that even some of their biological aunts and uncles. Many of the biological aunts and uncles have chalked me up to being a horrible mother and basically written me out of their lives.
He has done so much for me in the short 9 almost 10 years that I know known him. This is just an end of an era and I don’t know how to handle my thoughts as I help him go through this big transition in his life. This is not a good bye to him, this apartment does not define him. I have to remember; this apartment was just a very large stepping stone to get him and I to where we are today.
The other thing on my mind is my best friend, you know him well as he has made many appearances here on my LJ. Yep he is none other then Door Greeter Josh. Well he is no longer a door greeter and well he is MUCH more grown up and less hairy then before. For the past 7 almost 8 years he has been living in one place. He is making a big step in life and as a person of not liking a lot of change at one time. I am not sure what I feel about this. He is moving from his current apartment in Minneapolis to an apartment in San Jose. On one hand I am excited to see him move and grow and make a better life for himself, but on the other hand this is an end of an era. There were many night spent hanging out in his current apartment. Many secrets shared as well as many good times. I know it is only an apartment but that is where much of the good times were shared, and where I went to retreat when I was in my deepest of moods. He was always willing to welcome me in no matter when it was. It was also my hide out from my parents that were over bearing as well as a place to spread my wings and soar. It was this apartment and Josh that me through a very tough and long separation with my fiancé, now husband.(10 months total, He was in Idaho and I was still in WI/MN)
Now we are at the end of an era, Josh is moving on to bigger and better adventures. I am proud of him for trying to make a better life for him, but I feel like my safe haven from so many years ago is being taken from me. I no longer need it and in fact, I have not been to it for many years. It was always in the back of my mind that I could if I needed it. He is now moving, which is good for him
I now have my own safe haven with my husband and kids, but even through I never really was on the lease, that is where this solid friendship I have was really formed.
I know no matter where he is living he will always be part of my life. He will also be part of my children’s lives for many years to come. He is a much better uncle to my children that even some of their biological aunts and uncles. Many of the biological aunts and uncles have chalked me up to being a horrible mother and basically written me out of their lives.
He has done so much for me in the short 9 almost 10 years that I know known him. This is just an end of an era and I don’t know how to handle my thoughts as I help him go through this big transition in his life. This is not a good bye to him, this apartment does not define him. I have to remember; this apartment was just a very large stepping stone to get him and I to where we are today.