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I'm sitting here watching the Wizard of Oz. I must say that Glenda the Good Witch kinda freaks me out, and cracks me up at the same time. Does anyone think it's weird that she like a big, pink bubble and then in the next frame there's a woman in an outrageous pink dress. But the freaky thing is that she seems amused by the whole thing--Dorothy's appearance, the death of the witch, the Witch of the West crashing the party, the existence of munchkins... It's like she's a crazy psychiatrist watching lab rats or something. Or maybe it's the fact that she's a redhead wearing pink. Major fuax pas.
I must admit that I've become a concert-aholic. I have seen more concerts this year than I have in the last 10. It's been amazing to see the music and create memories with my kid brother, especially since my sister's all crazy now. We've become so close in the past year, and it's largely because of music and concerts. It's really awesome. Friday night on our way back from seeing the Old Crow Medicine Show (amazing!) Ben goes "Annie, you're an awesome sister!" To which I replied "Ben, you're an awesome brother!" And it wasn't a cheesey moment, it just was like a statement of fact. Never in a million years did I think that we'd be this close. When we were kids we used to fight like cats and dogs. I think it was the fact that he was like an interloper, coming along 6 years after me. I was the baby and it was hard to adjust to this. Not only did he become the baby, but he was the only boy and my parents and grandparents treated him differently from the beginning. And it didn't help that my sister assumed the role of Ben's protector. As a child, he hated me and adored Amanda. Now, it's a completely different story. It's awesome and amazing and I'm just so grateful for Ben's laid-back attitude amid all the crazy shit my sister's been spewing lately.
My dad and I had a funny conversation last Tuesday. We where talking about the argument my sister and I had and he goes "I hate that you can't get along with your sister. But, then again, I don't like any of mine, so I can't really say anything!" I love how Daddy's been able to see through Amanda and understand my anger and frustration in a way that my mom can't. I understand that she's my mom and she wants us to get along, but it's just impossible. I'd like to point out that she doesn't get along with one of her sisters, but that would never fly. Our relationship has changed since Amanda's back. I was afraid that it would, but was hoping it wouldn't. It makes me angry and sad that she seems to disregard the time that we've had and the bonds that we've made as soon as Amanda's back in the picture. I'm sure she doesn't realize that it doesn't seem that way to her, but it's an issue between us that I don't know how to broach. le sigh. I'm beginning to realize that, as long as Amanda's in the picture, we'll never have a relationship like I want. And it bothers me that we had it when Amanda left. It's like giving a kid a birthday cake and taking it away when someone else comes to the party and not letting the kid have anymore, but making them watch the other kid eat it. Annoying in the extreme.
Old Crow Medicine show (picture not mine). Check them out if you haven't already! They're amazing musicians and performers!
I must admit that I've become a concert-aholic. I have seen more concerts this year than I have in the last 10. It's been amazing to see the music and create memories with my kid brother, especially since my sister's all crazy now. We've become so close in the past year, and it's largely because of music and concerts. It's really awesome. Friday night on our way back from seeing the Old Crow Medicine Show (amazing!) Ben goes "Annie, you're an awesome sister!" To which I replied "Ben, you're an awesome brother!" And it wasn't a cheesey moment, it just was like a statement of fact. Never in a million years did I think that we'd be this close. When we were kids we used to fight like cats and dogs. I think it was the fact that he was like an interloper, coming along 6 years after me. I was the baby and it was hard to adjust to this. Not only did he become the baby, but he was the only boy and my parents and grandparents treated him differently from the beginning. And it didn't help that my sister assumed the role of Ben's protector. As a child, he hated me and adored Amanda. Now, it's a completely different story. It's awesome and amazing and I'm just so grateful for Ben's laid-back attitude amid all the crazy shit my sister's been spewing lately.
My dad and I had a funny conversation last Tuesday. We where talking about the argument my sister and I had and he goes "I hate that you can't get along with your sister. But, then again, I don't like any of mine, so I can't really say anything!" I love how Daddy's been able to see through Amanda and understand my anger and frustration in a way that my mom can't. I understand that she's my mom and she wants us to get along, but it's just impossible. I'd like to point out that she doesn't get along with one of her sisters, but that would never fly. Our relationship has changed since Amanda's back. I was afraid that it would, but was hoping it wouldn't. It makes me angry and sad that she seems to disregard the time that we've had and the bonds that we've made as soon as Amanda's back in the picture. I'm sure she doesn't realize that it doesn't seem that way to her, but it's an issue between us that I don't know how to broach. le sigh. I'm beginning to realize that, as long as Amanda's in the picture, we'll never have a relationship like I want. And it bothers me that we had it when Amanda left. It's like giving a kid a birthday cake and taking it away when someone else comes to the party and not letting the kid have anymore, but making them watch the other kid eat it. Annoying in the extreme.
Old Crow Medicine show (picture not mine). Check them out if you haven't already! They're amazing musicians and performers!