This week we get a little busy and a little serious, and a little help?
I swear, for loving winter I really freaking hate it.
I have an awful cough right now. Like really bad. It's from a chest cold, but having gotten bronchitis 2x means it's worse for me than just a regular chest cold.
So, Nikki and I went on our first date last night :D We went to Texas de Brazil and were mobbed by men with meat. It was really fun and good tasting. Well then we made out way to Lazerz for Cassie's birthday celebration and we got there about 45 minutes earlier than them. So we sat in a chair and listened to the music and watched these two girls try to sex up the bar and this one guy dance by himself on the floor. At one point Nikki freaked a bit and said she was frustrating herself because she wasn't letting herself touch me.
Well Cassie, her sis and Greg showed up and the club got busier. I danced a bit and then had an amaretto sour. Cassie tried to say I looked tipsy off of it. Silly girl. She liked it though. Well then there was some song where you did a bit of line dancing thing and so I dragged Cassie out there because she didn't think she could learn it. I taught her and we had fun and I'm sure Nikki was amused. We danced in a circle later and then it was time to go home at about 2. Well we were going to have an after party. Cassie and I got drunk, but mine wore off, it was just because I hadn't had anything to eat. We played Guitar Hero and everyone left around 5:30-6am.
The party then moved into my room. Kissing Nikki has now moved from slightly weird to I like it. So we made out. Seriously made out. She likes when I bite her. And scratch. Well things are progressing nicely when all of a sudden it's too intense for me and I have another mini panic attack. She's really good about it and I kind of cry a little, when I ask to blow my nose because it's really running. Oh, never mind that, it's a nose bleed(I get them all the time in winter). She has blood all on her shirt and it's on my sheets and pillow a bit. >< How uncool. Well I handle it and I'm all better.
I come back and Nikki asks if it's bad that she still wants to kiss me. I say yes because I didn't brushed my teeth after the nose bleed, but she didn't care. I told her if she made my nose bleed again I would kick her. We made out some more, but she was getting rather excited. I am not comfortable going any further so I try and slow things down. Then we started talking. I know she's 30 and she's had sex a lot. It's not a mystery to me on how she seems to know so many things. But from what she says it seems that the only reason people are with her is because of that. So I felt silly but I told her that I don't want to like her because of her sexual prowess. I want to like her because I like her. She said she wasn't banking on sex getting her anywhere so I explained the reason I said that is because she talks like it usually is the only thing. She said it was so I modified saying that even if we were having sex I don't want that to be the reason I like her. I thought she laughed a little but she said she didn't so I asked what she was thinking. She said she was thinking she was fucked. I asked why and after a little bit she said it was because she liked me too much too fast.
It's exciting but scary how much she likes me. And I'm glad I'm kind of forcing things to go slowly because I don't want things to explode into awesome and then supernova and we're left with nothing. I really like her. I just don't know if I'm going about things right. It's frustrating her and I don't want to frustrate her to the point that she doesn't want to deal with it. And it's almost ironic because usually everyone is all crazy in love with her and she's not understanding it, but it's switched. Apparently there's just something about people with strongly magnetic personalities.
*sigh* anyone have an idea for what I should name my soap opera? That way I can tag it and things.
I have an awful cough right now. Like really bad. It's from a chest cold, but having gotten bronchitis 2x means it's worse for me than just a regular chest cold.
So, Nikki and I went on our first date last night :D We went to Texas de Brazil and were mobbed by men with meat. It was really fun and good tasting. Well then we made out way to Lazerz for Cassie's birthday celebration and we got there about 45 minutes earlier than them. So we sat in a chair and listened to the music and watched these two girls try to sex up the bar and this one guy dance by himself on the floor. At one point Nikki freaked a bit and said she was frustrating herself because she wasn't letting herself touch me.
Well Cassie, her sis and Greg showed up and the club got busier. I danced a bit and then had an amaretto sour. Cassie tried to say I looked tipsy off of it. Silly girl. She liked it though. Well then there was some song where you did a bit of line dancing thing and so I dragged Cassie out there because she didn't think she could learn it. I taught her and we had fun and I'm sure Nikki was amused. We danced in a circle later and then it was time to go home at about 2. Well we were going to have an after party. Cassie and I got drunk, but mine wore off, it was just because I hadn't had anything to eat. We played Guitar Hero and everyone left around 5:30-6am.
The party then moved into my room. Kissing Nikki has now moved from slightly weird to I like it. So we made out. Seriously made out. She likes when I bite her. And scratch. Well things are progressing nicely when all of a sudden it's too intense for me and I have another mini panic attack. She's really good about it and I kind of cry a little, when I ask to blow my nose because it's really running. Oh, never mind that, it's a nose bleed(I get them all the time in winter). She has blood all on her shirt and it's on my sheets and pillow a bit. >< How uncool. Well I handle it and I'm all better.
I come back and Nikki asks if it's bad that she still wants to kiss me. I say yes because I didn't brushed my teeth after the nose bleed, but she didn't care. I told her if she made my nose bleed again I would kick her. We made out some more, but she was getting rather excited. I am not comfortable going any further so I try and slow things down. Then we started talking. I know she's 30 and she's had sex a lot. It's not a mystery to me on how she seems to know so many things. But from what she says it seems that the only reason people are with her is because of that. So I felt silly but I told her that I don't want to like her because of her sexual prowess. I want to like her because I like her. She said she wasn't banking on sex getting her anywhere so I explained the reason I said that is because she talks like it usually is the only thing. She said it was so I modified saying that even if we were having sex I don't want that to be the reason I like her. I thought she laughed a little but she said she didn't so I asked what she was thinking. She said she was thinking she was fucked. I asked why and after a little bit she said it was because she liked me too much too fast.
It's exciting but scary how much she likes me. And I'm glad I'm kind of forcing things to go slowly because I don't want things to explode into awesome and then supernova and we're left with nothing. I really like her. I just don't know if I'm going about things right. It's frustrating her and I don't want to frustrate her to the point that she doesn't want to deal with it. And it's almost ironic because usually everyone is all crazy in love with her and she's not understanding it, but it's switched. Apparently there's just something about people with strongly magnetic personalities.
*sigh* anyone have an idea for what I should name my soap opera? That way I can tag it and things.