Pre-Revelations.
A lot of thoughts have been in my head. And I'm nearly ready to place them fully down on paper. This is to be a gradual process. I have had many thoughts, and these are the things that I am sure of:
-I screwed up in some ways this semester. I didn't take full advantage of the opportunities that were presented to me. I fell at my own faults. I realized them, and still failed to act against them.
-I screwed up a friendship, and it's a sad thing as well. That is partly my fault.
-I didn't take the full advantage of attending mass and becoming even closer to God.
-I didn't really work out at all nor really try to be healthy.
-I was not active in things that are important me.
-I at one point lost myself.
A month and a half ago I was no longer lost but instead on many occasions off-track, and in some ways I still am. But that's going to change. It's too close to truly start now because I have two weeks left. But I can start a little. I want to seize the opportunity to relax and fix things at home. I was praying the Rosary earlier and at one point got teary because I realized how much I want to go home just to see that things have really gotten better. Because they have. I look forward to going home a changed gal, and after a month I want to come back to UD and be a changed woman.
I will therefore fix the mistakes of this semester:
- I will take advantage of the opportunities.
- I will be careful with any relationships that develop.
- I will attend mass as often as I can.
- I will take long walks and be a better eater.
- I will try to be active with Crusaders for Life.
- I will only get side-tracked. I"m not perfect.
For now what I have done is this:
- I cut off my friendship with Barry. It's for the best that I never talk to him or see him ever again. Kinda hard on the seeing since UD is so small. But it's for the best.
- I have to decided that some of my music once go. Especially since I now have over 2000 songs. I need to be free of the bad things in the past, and sadly some songs remind me of that past. Earlier I said bye to most to all but 2 of my Jack Off Jill songs. Who's next? I don't know. I want to rid myself of sins. So I should even rid myself of songs that promote lust and anger and anything else. I want songs that will provoke action that will make a difference. So in some ways I hold on to some angry stuff, but not all anger is bad.
I need to do something else productive now. Oh, and I have a plan before Christmas...I want to dye my hair to get it close to my natural hair color again. And my hair got a cut, not that short. But you can tell it's shorter. I'm ready for change.
Praise be to God.
-I screwed up in some ways this semester. I didn't take full advantage of the opportunities that were presented to me. I fell at my own faults. I realized them, and still failed to act against them.
-I screwed up a friendship, and it's a sad thing as well. That is partly my fault.
-I didn't take the full advantage of attending mass and becoming even closer to God.
-I didn't really work out at all nor really try to be healthy.
-I was not active in things that are important me.
-I at one point lost myself.
A month and a half ago I was no longer lost but instead on many occasions off-track, and in some ways I still am. But that's going to change. It's too close to truly start now because I have two weeks left. But I can start a little. I want to seize the opportunity to relax and fix things at home. I was praying the Rosary earlier and at one point got teary because I realized how much I want to go home just to see that things have really gotten better. Because they have. I look forward to going home a changed gal, and after a month I want to come back to UD and be a changed woman.
I will therefore fix the mistakes of this semester:
- I will take advantage of the opportunities.
- I will be careful with any relationships that develop.
- I will attend mass as often as I can.
- I will take long walks and be a better eater.
- I will try to be active with Crusaders for Life.
- I will only get side-tracked. I"m not perfect.
For now what I have done is this:
- I cut off my friendship with Barry. It's for the best that I never talk to him or see him ever again. Kinda hard on the seeing since UD is so small. But it's for the best.
- I have to decided that some of my music once go. Especially since I now have over 2000 songs. I need to be free of the bad things in the past, and sadly some songs remind me of that past. Earlier I said bye to most to all but 2 of my Jack Off Jill songs. Who's next? I don't know. I want to rid myself of sins. So I should even rid myself of songs that promote lust and anger and anything else. I want songs that will provoke action that will make a difference. So in some ways I hold on to some angry stuff, but not all anger is bad.
I need to do something else productive now. Oh, and I have a plan before Christmas...I want to dye my hair to get it close to my natural hair color again. And my hair got a cut, not that short. But you can tell it's shorter. I'm ready for change.
Praise be to God.