Time
Sunday. Wow. it was hard that morning. I mean, I was just doing my best to be calm. I was in my PJ's, so there'll be some nice pics of me on facebook probably haha. Well, I did get teary and such. She made it to Tulsa, we were able to chat on AIM. Yeah, and actually I didn't bawl like I thought I would have. I only used two tissues in the car to wipe my tears and blow my nose. Mom and I went walking afterwards.
We went walking later on too, and I worked afterward. Then Chris and I (after i took a shower, i smelled gross with all the sweat) went to see the Meteor Shower. Retha and Alex were there too. I saw a couple, it was pretty cool.
I've been bummed out too. Not just because of Christine leaving, but also because of my cousins. Jennifer and Cory. They live right down the street. I've been wanting to hang out with them for the past two weeks, but it always falls through. I know part of it was me, I mean I worked a lot the last weeks of my job. (I need to post about my job...later I shall). but then I'd try to go over and Jen would say that Cory had a game or a practice, or Cory said they were going to Nana's house or to Jen's brothers...I mean...after I even said, hey wed. let's watch Blood and Chocolate, and she said that's fine, they go to her brothers, (and this is a apparently a weekly thing). Saturday we were supposed to go over. But they didn't call when they came home. Mom had to call and Cory was having friends over. Sunday we were going to go over. But they went to Tuscola. Geez.
I feel like just giving up. And now, because I am upset, I don't really want to go over at all. I mean Jennifer had to come over last week to use the computer, which was fine. But it's just. I want to talk to Jennifer. I want to chill out watching a movie. I want the boys to say: hey J-ca! I want to hold baby Sonya. And i'm not. People are posting how many days left until Dallas. And I quit when I did so I could have time with people. And it's sad to know the people I want to be with, don't have the time.
We went walking later on too, and I worked afterward. Then Chris and I (after i took a shower, i smelled gross with all the sweat) went to see the Meteor Shower. Retha and Alex were there too. I saw a couple, it was pretty cool.
I've been bummed out too. Not just because of Christine leaving, but also because of my cousins. Jennifer and Cory. They live right down the street. I've been wanting to hang out with them for the past two weeks, but it always falls through. I know part of it was me, I mean I worked a lot the last weeks of my job. (I need to post about my job...later I shall). but then I'd try to go over and Jen would say that Cory had a game or a practice, or Cory said they were going to Nana's house or to Jen's brothers...I mean...after I even said, hey wed. let's watch Blood and Chocolate, and she said that's fine, they go to her brothers, (and this is a apparently a weekly thing). Saturday we were supposed to go over. But they didn't call when they came home. Mom had to call and Cory was having friends over. Sunday we were going to go over. But they went to Tuscola. Geez.
I feel like just giving up. And now, because I am upset, I don't really want to go over at all. I mean Jennifer had to come over last week to use the computer, which was fine. But it's just. I want to talk to Jennifer. I want to chill out watching a movie. I want the boys to say: hey J-ca! I want to hold baby Sonya. And i'm not. People are posting how many days left until Dallas. And I quit when I did so I could have time with people. And it's sad to know the people I want to be with, don't have the time.