so now that i've got it all out....
Where do I go from here? It's time for some solutions i think. I think I might need some help though.
Perhaps the following might work out a little better
1.Going out on more dates. Getting comfortable with the idea of hanging out with a guy by myself...roflmao.
2.Finishing school and finding a full time job that pays well enough that I can move out on my own.
3. Visiting my dad twice a year for a lenghthy time (2-4 weeks)
4. Forgiving myself as easily as I forgive others for making mistakes
5. Laying off on the beer...since beer makes me act really strangely.
6. focus hard on the things in life I want to acheive in: Music (singing in the band, teaching piano theory, playing piano and someday maybe even trumpet) Ultimate frsibee (I dont' think I'll get back into baseball again, but I could really make something of myself in ultimate frisbee)
quote by Marianne Williamson:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
I'm not sure I agree 100% to this quote, but it rings true for me in many senses.
I think it's time for some food. I haven't been eating much lately, which is bad! I get to play ultimate tonight but I'll do no good on the field if I cramp up because I haven't eaten and I'm dehydrated.
peace.
Perhaps the following might work out a little better
1.Going out on more dates. Getting comfortable with the idea of hanging out with a guy by myself...roflmao.
2.Finishing school and finding a full time job that pays well enough that I can move out on my own.
3. Visiting my dad twice a year for a lenghthy time (2-4 weeks)
4. Forgiving myself as easily as I forgive others for making mistakes
5. Laying off on the beer...since beer makes me act really strangely.
6. focus hard on the things in life I want to acheive in: Music (singing in the band, teaching piano theory, playing piano and someday maybe even trumpet) Ultimate frsibee (I dont' think I'll get back into baseball again, but I could really make something of myself in ultimate frisbee)
quote by Marianne Williamson:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
I'm not sure I agree 100% to this quote, but it rings true for me in many senses.
I think it's time for some food. I haven't been eating much lately, which is bad! I get to play ultimate tonight but I'll do no good on the field if I cramp up because I haven't eaten and I'm dehydrated.
peace.