title got fired~
First of all - I'm not back.
While I should because I need some English writing.
Right now I need speaking more, actually... tomorrow is a final round of an English competition and it'll be a talk with native speaker. I need to presentate them answers for some questions (they gave me 18 big questions to prepare answers!).
My English went away during the winter break, I'm afraid... I'm scared of tomorrow, I feel I can't speak English right now. Just the words are flying around my head, hiding before me, and I can't collect my thoughts in one place. So, I don't know even what I am thinking, yes... Am I going to fail completely or does it just seem so?
So... collecting the thoughts... practicing English... practicing English thinking, I'll try to describe my day, ok?
I woke up at 5:15 am, but got up 15 minutes later. Why the heck so early? I wanted to search answers for the contest questions, that's the reason. (I still cannot collect my thoughts.) Yesterday I had a horrible headache, it wasn't possible for me to do anything, so I went to bed earlier and set up my clock to 5:15. Okay, so after maybe an hour of studying, I got dressed properly, put on some make-up (it's not often I do it ^^), ate breakfast (musli with chocolate and milk) and got out. My dad is in Warsaw today for work, he had to go there before 5 am, so my cousin's dad had to drive us to school (my cousin's school is near to mine and we're going together, normally it's my dad who takes us there, otherwise we would have to take a bus that is leaving 6:59... not so nice). We had a test exam of math, biology, physics and other subjects like these today. It wasn't easy... some questions were totally out of Earth. O.o"
After the exam that ended at 2 pm we were told we have no more lessons today. I would have piano lesson but yesterday I've decided I'm not going, so I went home very early :) That was great!
And now I'm writing this... okay... maybe some my thoughts on other topics? I have to think English fluently for tomorrow; in other words, I HAVE TO GET THIS FUCKING SKILL BACK.
As you see, I'm not in very great great mood and I won't be jumping around, singing pop songs. I'm angry. I'm angry at time, at school... I'm angry because this competition is tomorrow and I'm not prepared good yet! :( I don't like it... and tomorrow is a test from History... I hate studying history.
What more I can write about? The weather is just March-ish. Yesterday when I got to the violin class the sun was so hard that I had to draw the blinds. When my lesson ended (45 minutes later) I looked out of this window and it was dark outside because of the clouds and it was snowing... I hate the season that comes between winter and spring. It's so unexpected, cold, sunny&cloudy&snowy&ANYTHING the same time. The blue sky is so springy. You want the spring with all your heart, but it's still not spring. And it's not warm, and it's ugly outside, and mud everywhere... Bleh.
My friend L. has just called me; she said "hi" and then "I LOVE YOU!" and it was so sweet. <3 I like when people tell me they love me. Love is a very huge thing and has lot of meaning... so I don't think it's hard to love and telling this loved people makes them very happy ^^ In the end, love is the thing we deserve the most, isn't it?
Twilight outside. 5:25. It should last till 5:50, and then I'll be dark. Goodnight!
(I'd like to go sleep now xD But it's not possible.)
Tomorrows Friday. Thursday evenings I always have the feel of the week ending, but today weekend seems so far away. COMPETITION. FINAL. LAST ROUND. 30 persons, including me. (I'd like them to be 29 to beat... but I won't win in a condition I'm now.
Normally I would tell myself to think positive because the faith is a great help, but the second round I conviced me I don't need it so much. My own skills surprised me xD
I believe in my skills like it wasn't me, but it's okay!
I.Love.Metal.Music.
Just a little thought at the end ^.~
While I should because I need some English writing.
Right now I need speaking more, actually... tomorrow is a final round of an English competition and it'll be a talk with native speaker. I need to presentate them answers for some questions (they gave me 18 big questions to prepare answers!).
My English went away during the winter break, I'm afraid... I'm scared of tomorrow, I feel I can't speak English right now. Just the words are flying around my head, hiding before me, and I can't collect my thoughts in one place. So, I don't know even what I am thinking, yes... Am I going to fail completely or does it just seem so?
So... collecting the thoughts... practicing English... practicing English thinking, I'll try to describe my day, ok?
I woke up at 5:15 am, but got up 15 minutes later. Why the heck so early? I wanted to search answers for the contest questions, that's the reason. (I still cannot collect my thoughts.) Yesterday I had a horrible headache, it wasn't possible for me to do anything, so I went to bed earlier and set up my clock to 5:15. Okay, so after maybe an hour of studying, I got dressed properly, put on some make-up (it's not often I do it ^^), ate breakfast (musli with chocolate and milk) and got out. My dad is in Warsaw today for work, he had to go there before 5 am, so my cousin's dad had to drive us to school (my cousin's school is near to mine and we're going together, normally it's my dad who takes us there, otherwise we would have to take a bus that is leaving 6:59... not so nice). We had a test exam of math, biology, physics and other subjects like these today. It wasn't easy... some questions were totally out of Earth. O.o"
After the exam that ended at 2 pm we were told we have no more lessons today. I would have piano lesson but yesterday I've decided I'm not going, so I went home very early :) That was great!
And now I'm writing this... okay... maybe some my thoughts on other topics? I have to think English fluently for tomorrow; in other words, I HAVE TO GET THIS FUCKING SKILL BACK.
As you see, I'm not in very great great mood and I won't be jumping around, singing pop songs. I'm angry. I'm angry at time, at school... I'm angry because this competition is tomorrow and I'm not prepared good yet! :( I don't like it... and tomorrow is a test from History... I hate studying history.
What more I can write about? The weather is just March-ish. Yesterday when I got to the violin class the sun was so hard that I had to draw the blinds. When my lesson ended (45 minutes later) I looked out of this window and it was dark outside because of the clouds and it was snowing... I hate the season that comes between winter and spring. It's so unexpected, cold, sunny&cloudy&snowy&ANYTHING the same time. The blue sky is so springy. You want the spring with all your heart, but it's still not spring. And it's not warm, and it's ugly outside, and mud everywhere... Bleh.
My friend L. has just called me; she said "hi" and then "I LOVE YOU!" and it was so sweet. <3 I like when people tell me they love me. Love is a very huge thing and has lot of meaning... so I don't think it's hard to love and telling this loved people makes them very happy ^^ In the end, love is the thing we deserve the most, isn't it?
Twilight outside. 5:25. It should last till 5:50, and then I'll be dark. Goodnight!
(I'd like to go sleep now xD But it's not possible.)
Tomorrows Friday. Thursday evenings I always have the feel of the week ending, but today weekend seems so far away. COMPETITION. FINAL. LAST ROUND. 30 persons, including me. (I'd like them to be 29 to beat... but I won't win in a condition I'm now.
Normally I would tell myself to think positive because the faith is a great help, but the second round I conviced me I don't need it so much. My own skills surprised me xD
I believe in my skills like it wasn't me, but it's okay!
I.Love.Metal.Music.
Just a little thought at the end ^.~