This is the song that never ends...
This gonna be a long post, I have a lot of shit to get off my chest.
1. Ok dance..... Joffery the week after next! I'm starting to get discouraged, I mean I have bad feet, I'm wicked tall, and I actually have an ass. I don't have anyone I can talk to about it either, my dance friends wouldn't understand or they'd just tell me little white lies to make me feel temporarily better. My regular friends either don't dance, would say the same stuff as my ballet friends, are out of town, or are too obsessed with television shows and books to actually listen to me.
2. Which brings me to my next point, Caeli, love her to death, but sometimes I feel like I'm the one listening and I never get to talk about anything that's important to me. Girl, if your reading this, you're my best friend but sometimes I really just need you to be there for me. Like this afternoon when I was going to tell you what happened at the mall and you were to obsessed with Avatar to care.
3. Point 3, how Dillon Tiner can still ruin my mood in a second after it's been a year and a half since the incident. So when I was at the mall today with my family, I passed Dillon, Evan Gooden, and Brian Mackey. The latter 2 waved and smiled, the first didn't. Why the hell is that, what the fuck does he have against me!? WHAT THE FUCK DID I EVER DO TO HIM BESIDES ASK HIM OUT!?!?!?!?!?!!?
4. I miss my guy friends terribly, Alaa because he's in Virginia with his evil father, Max because he's in Florida and our last conversation didn't go so well, Alexis is in Freakin Spain, and Dylan is around but can't seem to answer his goddamn cell phone!
In some ways life is looking up, first of all I'm going to NYC! I'm going to see a broadway show the weekend of my 14th birthday! Plus the story I'm writing kinda sorta takes place at NYU so I can visit the campus and actually figure out stuff that I can't without being there! Ooo, plus the Avatar trailer came out, for some reason I'm not as excited as I should be, and I saw Hairspray which was awesome! But if your reading this, the world is still kind of heavy on my shoulders so if I need support just be kind, ok?