I believe I can

[queen_of_you]

Somehow I forgot that it was the season finale of ER tonight. Why the FUCK did I forget? Oh fuck, why? But more importantly why did I share my life with Ryan (not saying you aren't the singular person to share with) but why did that have to happen. I don't know, maybe I just get annoyed with the fact that people generally suck or that the one in a million is amazing and is the one that is not for you (on their own terms). Maybe life sucks, but it cannot continue on this way as it has not for as long as I have remembered. Things suck for a while, then somehow something changes... and SHIT, it all gets better. However, I'm just waiting for that 'SHIT' to happen.

I love my boys. Sadly I dont really love my boys.