geez
ok i feel like everything is blown out of proportion. i just dont know what else to do or say anymore...yea i shouldnt have lied that was shitty of me and i said i was sorry i cant take it back.but considering this was the first time i have done something like that to her it seems like woah everything sucks. i just wish there wasnt any tension and no drama. i feel like i am the only one who still feels like shit....what am i supposed to do? im sick and tired of this. just a few days ago everything felt back to normal..perfect...now it feels like once again i am out. whatever im sick of this and i dont know how to say all of this....what happened to my best friends? i just want everything back to normal what the hell i feel like the biggest bitch. i know this is the most random thing ever but i have to get everything out somehow...and no one reads this anyway. so yea im sittin at home by myself tonight for the first time in forever while all my friends are swimmin. i hope they have fun. (no thats not sarcastic) this was the best summer ever i knew it was too good to be true! whatever im out.