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It’s all blurry, you can’t properly focus on anything but the dull ache on the back of your head.
You really are not talking about your father, except that you are. It’s an off limit topic, the kind of thing you shouldn’t be thinking about. Whenever Cameron asks you shrug, hoping she’ll eventually let it down.
But you can’t help talking and letting that dull ache in your head spread and move. You look away, you’re not really looking at anything. It may look like you’re having a flashback or some of that crap Froid would say but it really is not. You’re just trying not to lock eyes with anyone.
They don’t get House’s pain, they can’t get House’s pain. It’s like a huge secret held by the orphans’ circle. You understand it because you’ve felt it, you’ve been feeling it for 10 years.
Hating them, then finding yourself thinking every second of what it’d have been. He’ll get used to it, eventually.
In the meantime, he’s not alone, even if he wants to.