American Pie
the movie rocks.
my boy is SENSATIONAL! I think I have only just realised how happy he makes me and how much I love him. like.. lots. *sheepish grin* seeing jesse made me realise how lucky I am to have a man like mine in my life. and I guess.. I am glad that we got togeather after I went through all the big shit that has happened to me so far and not before, I think it has made us a great and strong couple. I mean.. if I was like I was when I was with ass fuck while I was with my boy.. it so would not have lasted. he is just perfect for me I think.
and I have the benifit of some very special friends to help back that up. even when I am in a bad mood about something, or shitty at him or whatever. I have the best friends in the whole world to go with the best boy in the whole world.
he is taking me away for valentines. I'm a bit worried about that. nanna is sick at the moment and all, but it should be ok. it sounds all serious though, this big romantic weekend away. but I guess I am just all wrapped up in the alentines day hype. I have never had a man over valentines day that cared about me. ass fuck and chris dont count.
but yeah. weekend away with the boy. yay.
and so.. other news.. umm.. *thinks of other news* I dont know that I have a lot of other news at the moment..
and I"m not really in the mood for feelings at the moment. I dunno. I have had a pretty weird last few days. I was feeling all down and then up and then even more down and then up and then.. well.. I felt pretty bad. but now I think I am back to normal. better than normal though.. I dunno.. I think I kinda went through this whole thing in my head about how I really felt towards my boy. cause I was at the point where I kinda had to decide weather I was compleatly serious about him, or weather we were just another of my relationships that I was just floating through.. jesse and I had this big talk about just floating along, and he kinda told me that every now and then, you have to swim on your own, and stop just floating on the top. he is cut about him n his girl that he just broke up with, he floated. the relationship just sank after a while though. I'm a floater too, just like him. and I decided that this was the one relationship that I had to stop from sinking though.. like all the others. I dunno, but I think rob n me are the real thing. *shrugs* this is where I wanna be.. for a very long time *is happy*
so much for not being in the mood for feelings.
good night everyone.
Queen Cazza - swimming upstream
ps. Rhi once said that I had a song for every occasion, and you know.. I think she may be right.. I am scaring myself at how many songs I can think of to match just about every journal entry mood of basic topic I have written.. for the ones that dont seem to match it was cause I was ACTUALLY listening to that music/sounds (I'll be honest.. I've normally got the TV on while on the net! *gasp* most of my music things are LIES!! all LIES!!)
my boy is SENSATIONAL! I think I have only just realised how happy he makes me and how much I love him. like.. lots. *sheepish grin* seeing jesse made me realise how lucky I am to have a man like mine in my life. and I guess.. I am glad that we got togeather after I went through all the big shit that has happened to me so far and not before, I think it has made us a great and strong couple. I mean.. if I was like I was when I was with ass fuck while I was with my boy.. it so would not have lasted. he is just perfect for me I think.
and I have the benifit of some very special friends to help back that up. even when I am in a bad mood about something, or shitty at him or whatever. I have the best friends in the whole world to go with the best boy in the whole world.
he is taking me away for valentines. I'm a bit worried about that. nanna is sick at the moment and all, but it should be ok. it sounds all serious though, this big romantic weekend away. but I guess I am just all wrapped up in the alentines day hype. I have never had a man over valentines day that cared about me. ass fuck and chris dont count.
but yeah. weekend away with the boy. yay.
and so.. other news.. umm.. *thinks of other news* I dont know that I have a lot of other news at the moment..
and I"m not really in the mood for feelings at the moment. I dunno. I have had a pretty weird last few days. I was feeling all down and then up and then even more down and then up and then.. well.. I felt pretty bad. but now I think I am back to normal. better than normal though.. I dunno.. I think I kinda went through this whole thing in my head about how I really felt towards my boy. cause I was at the point where I kinda had to decide weather I was compleatly serious about him, or weather we were just another of my relationships that I was just floating through.. jesse and I had this big talk about just floating along, and he kinda told me that every now and then, you have to swim on your own, and stop just floating on the top. he is cut about him n his girl that he just broke up with, he floated. the relationship just sank after a while though. I'm a floater too, just like him. and I decided that this was the one relationship that I had to stop from sinking though.. like all the others. I dunno, but I think rob n me are the real thing. *shrugs* this is where I wanna be.. for a very long time *is happy*
so much for not being in the mood for feelings.
good night everyone.
Queen Cazza - swimming upstream
ps. Rhi once said that I had a song for every occasion, and you know.. I think she may be right.. I am scaring myself at how many songs I can think of to match just about every journal entry mood of basic topic I have written.. for the ones that dont seem to match it was cause I was ACTUALLY listening to that music/sounds (I'll be honest.. I've normally got the TV on while on the net! *gasp* most of my music things are LIES!! all LIES!!)