For couples_therapy: 8.1, Promise
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He broke his promise.
It may not have been made in so many words, but it had still been there. Before we got together, there were things in his past, things he'd done for his job, that I didn't like. Things I didn't approve of. He told me once he got away from that place, he wouldn't be that person again, that he wanted to change for me. I believed him. I trusted him. And then he broke his promise.
I found out he's been mixed up in some nasty business from his old job for the past five months. He's been doing rituals for a group of demons - very bad demons - so he chose to hide it from me, knowing I wouldn't like it. He says he only did it for my protection, that I was being threatened. I believe him, but I'm still having a hard time forgiving him. Some things, no matter what the motivation behind doing them, are just wrong.
He's promised me so many things in the year we've been together, but that was one of the biggest ones. That was the one that meant the difference between our relationship going somewhere or ending before it could really begin. If he could break that one, then who's to say he won't break the others one day, too? I know that's not being very fair to him - he'd tell me I'm not giving him a chance to regain my trust if I keep thinking like that - but I can't help it.
Sometimes I wonder if my past relationships have broken me beyond repair.
He broke his promise.
It may not have been made in so many words, but it had still been there. Before we got together, there were things in his past, things he'd done for his job, that I didn't like. Things I didn't approve of. He told me once he got away from that place, he wouldn't be that person again, that he wanted to change for me. I believed him. I trusted him. And then he broke his promise.
I found out he's been mixed up in some nasty business from his old job for the past five months. He's been doing rituals for a group of demons - very bad demons - so he chose to hide it from me, knowing I wouldn't like it. He says he only did it for my protection, that I was being threatened. I believe him, but I'm still having a hard time forgiving him. Some things, no matter what the motivation behind doing them, are just wrong.
He's promised me so many things in the year we've been together, but that was one of the biggest ones. That was the one that meant the difference between our relationship going somewhere or ending before it could really begin. If he could break that one, then who's to say he won't break the others one day, too? I know that's not being very fair to him - he'd tell me I'm not giving him a chance to regain my trust if I keep thinking like that - but I can't help it.
Sometimes I wonder if my past relationships have broken me beyond repair.