Just a little splurge...
I figured I haven't updated my life in a while, so I might as well leave a little note as to how I'm doing. :) Although, I think we've sort of drifted from LJ, haven't we? Or maybe not...
Life's pretty good. I've been working on losing weight and already I'm much better than I was in England. I just got a great haircut, which always tends to boost one's self esteem. I had a really nice weekend home, although it was short, and I never have to drive that damn Buick ever again! I mean, don't get me wrong, it's a sweet car and everybody at school loved it, but I do not love a car that stalls on me in the middle of the highway and forces me to drive 45 mph for 6 1/2 hours from PA to CT. It's just too much stress. Not good for a girl who already has too much anxiety than a normal person should. lol. But anyway, I get to drive the van back tomorrow (as it's my last break [already??]) so I won't have any trouble anymore. *knock on wood* I like driving the van anyway. Not only does it drive better, but it just means more to me. I learned to drive in that van, I drove it all through high school, I got asked out for the first time in that car, and received many nice kisses. :) I don't even care that it's a mini van... lol
Susquehanna is fantastic, it really is. The music department makes my life and I'm really working on my English major now. Work worries me frequently, but the working out at the gym helps a lot. I have two papers to write when I get back to school, but one is on Radiohead so I'm not dreading it too much. Well actually, I am terribly nervous to write this paper because I want it to be GOOD. I know I'm a good writer, but I want to give justice to the subject matter, especially when my Radiohead music supplier is such an expertise. I think I'm more nervous for him to read it than my own professor. And as for that part of my crazy mind, it's just as miserable as it was in England. I miss him just as much, even though he is just across campus. It's quite sad actually. Our schedules seem to clash horribly. And I don't think he knows just how much I care about him. And I'm too afraid to let him know, afraid he won't speak to me as a friend anymore. I've had more than enough experience in boys I like taking advantage of me because I let them, and I don't want it to happen again. But anyway, I don't want to talk about this anymore.
I'm loving being back at school, although I miss all things British of course. I don't miss Lancaster University at all, only the people. Susquehanna has finally become what I've wanted it to be: a place of comfort, a place where I feel comfortable, a place that makes me happy, that provides awesome friendships and all that good stuff. I'm finally taking advantage of weekends and not staying in my room and you have no idea how liberating that is. It's just too bad it's my junior year. But again, I don't want to talk about that. It only makes me uneasy about next year... and then the year after that.
Oh, and say hello to the new VP of Membership for SAI next year!! :) I'm really excited to be "pledge mom" and have a real leadership position. It's an incredibly big step for me, but I think I can do it. I've progressed a lot over the past year... I just wish that stupid boy would recognize that.
Back to packing...
Life's pretty good. I've been working on losing weight and already I'm much better than I was in England. I just got a great haircut, which always tends to boost one's self esteem. I had a really nice weekend home, although it was short, and I never have to drive that damn Buick ever again! I mean, don't get me wrong, it's a sweet car and everybody at school loved it, but I do not love a car that stalls on me in the middle of the highway and forces me to drive 45 mph for 6 1/2 hours from PA to CT. It's just too much stress. Not good for a girl who already has too much anxiety than a normal person should. lol. But anyway, I get to drive the van back tomorrow (as it's my last break [already??]) so I won't have any trouble anymore. *knock on wood* I like driving the van anyway. Not only does it drive better, but it just means more to me. I learned to drive in that van, I drove it all through high school, I got asked out for the first time in that car, and received many nice kisses. :) I don't even care that it's a mini van... lol
Susquehanna is fantastic, it really is. The music department makes my life and I'm really working on my English major now. Work worries me frequently, but the working out at the gym helps a lot. I have two papers to write when I get back to school, but one is on Radiohead so I'm not dreading it too much. Well actually, I am terribly nervous to write this paper because I want it to be GOOD. I know I'm a good writer, but I want to give justice to the subject matter, especially when my Radiohead music supplier is such an expertise. I think I'm more nervous for him to read it than my own professor. And as for that part of my crazy mind, it's just as miserable as it was in England. I miss him just as much, even though he is just across campus. It's quite sad actually. Our schedules seem to clash horribly. And I don't think he knows just how much I care about him. And I'm too afraid to let him know, afraid he won't speak to me as a friend anymore. I've had more than enough experience in boys I like taking advantage of me because I let them, and I don't want it to happen again. But anyway, I don't want to talk about this anymore.
I'm loving being back at school, although I miss all things British of course. I don't miss Lancaster University at all, only the people. Susquehanna has finally become what I've wanted it to be: a place of comfort, a place where I feel comfortable, a place that makes me happy, that provides awesome friendships and all that good stuff. I'm finally taking advantage of weekends and not staying in my room and you have no idea how liberating that is. It's just too bad it's my junior year. But again, I don't want to talk about that. It only makes me uneasy about next year... and then the year after that.
Oh, and say hello to the new VP of Membership for SAI next year!! :) I'm really excited to be "pledge mom" and have a real leadership position. It's an incredibly big step for me, but I think I can do it. I've progressed a lot over the past year... I just wish that stupid boy would recognize that.
Back to packing...