Update
Quick update: I apologize for the rant. I know it's nobody's fault that you live closer. I'm just jealous that you are able to see each other more often than you can see me. I guess I have this fear that I'll eventually by phased out. Now I know that will never happen, but what can I say, I'm a terrible, terrible worrier. I don't hate anyone, I promise. I was a little out of my mind yesterday. I guess it's always kind of bothered me that ya know, two of you go to the same school, and you're close to Boston and even Jess can come down to visit far more often than I ever could. I just don't want to be left behind. (which I know I won't be, but sometimes in my loneliest moments, I can't help feeling it)
Plus some things have turned around a little bit. I have a job for the next couple Sundays playing hymns at a church in the next town over. I substituted this morning there and they asked if I was able to come back each Sunday until the end of the semester. Of course there's only two left, but what an amazing opportunity and it couldn't have come at a better time, too. I also got a parking spot behind my dorm this morning for once, which kinda made my day. It's all in the little things.
My family is coming home from Germany today. I wish they could come to my Return-from-tour Choir concert this afternoon, but they'd never be able to make it. They can never come to any concerts, not even the Candlelight Concert in December. I love my choice of school, but the only thing that really really bothers me is the distance. I remember being four hours away when my sisters was in the hospital after Thanksgiving. It was just horrible. And then I hear you guys together in Boston, and missing my sister in the high school play and tons of other stuff. Maybe I'm sentimental, but I don't like missing out and being away when things at home aren't good. England will be different, because come on, I'll be in England. There'll be way too many things keeping me occupied. But because I'm out in the middle of nowhere, in a town that's not nearly as lovely as Fairfield (I really do believe that Fairfield is great, whoever says there's nothing to do in Fairfield has never lived in Selinsgrove), I miss it all the more. I have great friends here, I really do, it's just tough sometimes.
Plus some things have turned around a little bit. I have a job for the next couple Sundays playing hymns at a church in the next town over. I substituted this morning there and they asked if I was able to come back each Sunday until the end of the semester. Of course there's only two left, but what an amazing opportunity and it couldn't have come at a better time, too. I also got a parking spot behind my dorm this morning for once, which kinda made my day. It's all in the little things.
My family is coming home from Germany today. I wish they could come to my Return-from-tour Choir concert this afternoon, but they'd never be able to make it. They can never come to any concerts, not even the Candlelight Concert in December. I love my choice of school, but the only thing that really really bothers me is the distance. I remember being four hours away when my sisters was in the hospital after Thanksgiving. It was just horrible. And then I hear you guys together in Boston, and missing my sister in the high school play and tons of other stuff. Maybe I'm sentimental, but I don't like missing out and being away when things at home aren't good. England will be different, because come on, I'll be in England. There'll be way too many things keeping me occupied. But because I'm out in the middle of nowhere, in a town that's not nearly as lovely as Fairfield (I really do believe that Fairfield is great, whoever says there's nothing to do in Fairfield has never lived in Selinsgrove), I miss it all the more. I have great friends here, I really do, it's just tough sometimes.