Gray Clouds aren't good...
I can't shake the feeling today. I am down and it didn't start out like this. I am suffering from the "I still don't know what the fuck I want to do with my life..." disease. I am thankful for having a real job now but I just can't shake it today. I feel so lowly and un-achieving today. I can't say what makes this come on but...., well I can say what it is...
Some days I sit and I read about others being doctors and lawyer and I just find what I do sorely lacking. How chicken shit is that? Penis envy over a career!?! Its not just that though. Its about having something that resembles a career. Most days it doesn't bother me. Other days when it does rise up I can push it back down. But today its just not happening.
Oh, well such is my weakness.
Autumn still rocks.
Some days I sit and I read about others being doctors and lawyer and I just find what I do sorely lacking. How chicken shit is that? Penis envy over a career!?! Its not just that though. Its about having something that resembles a career. Most days it doesn't bother me. Other days when it does rise up I can push it back down. But today its just not happening.
Oh, well such is my weakness.
Autumn still rocks.