Two turn-tables and a microwave....!!!!
Last year I asked could we be reborn? I, at the time, thought so. Now I'm not so sure. I'm so.... "lost" isn't the word. I'm just reflecting a bit.
I see teenagers and I think about the choices I made at the time. If only someone had told me..., Told me what I don't know. Maybe the future... ...yeah, go on and laugh.... Isn't that just the thing though. Someone did tell me. Several someone's actually. I just wish i had done a few things differently. Life goes by so fast and here I am living from week to week, pay check to pay check. Well, at least I have a job right...., got to be more thankful.
Heh, so here is the question. What are we supposed to be doing? Just what is it that we 'need' to be doing? I guess I just need a hobby. Don't get me wrong I'm not unhappy. I have a lovely woman and child in my life and things are going great. You know the drill..., once we reach the top of one mountain we look for the next to climb. Is that whats going on here? Is that what I'm supposed to be doing. Heh,.... I mean some scrabble for money, some for women. Those of you who know me, know I love women. Damn, do I love women. But I'm a one woman man now. (No, laughing there in the back!!!) Yeah, I need a hobby. My daughter is part of my everyday life, and its great but its not enough. Should it be? I don't know. I so new to all of this. When you have children are you supposed to continue your life or press pause for 18+ years? So many questions so little time.
Anyway, back to my second favorite subject. Women.... Look but don't touch right? Heh, now there is a whole new question. Is looking betraying or cheating in a relationship? Perhaps... I've heard arguments in both directions. I don't know. Maybe it has to do with what your thinking while your looking. I really don't consciously know what I'm thinking. I guess its along the lines of "damn" and "holy mother of....". Is that cheating, or is that just being non-pc? Anyone with half an answer is welcome to comment. Many thought and bits of wisdom are requested.
Alright lets look on the other hand. 'My girl'...., she is very loyal..., it is something that attracts me to her. Am I jealous? Oh hell yes, but the fact that she is so loyal makes it easy on me. I'll even go so far as to say this...., I wouldn't mind her going to see a male strip show. In my mind its cool as long as she brings the resulting hormones home to yours truly. She may think that one of the fellows has a great ass, abs or a big thingy... LOL, well you know. Its all good to me. I guess its that way because deep down in my heart i "know" she won't do anything. I guess I just wish she felt the same way. Heh, that may be my fault also. I haven't always been fully committed to her as I am now. I know its taken its toll on her. Maybe I can repair the damage.
Heh, anyway... Its my birthday and I love you all. I love all of you on my friendslist..., well most of you. Also I love all of you whom I have not yet met. Much love to you all. While I'm not Dave Chappell, I am Rick James bitch!!!
I see teenagers and I think about the choices I made at the time. If only someone had told me..., Told me what I don't know. Maybe the future... ...yeah, go on and laugh.... Isn't that just the thing though. Someone did tell me. Several someone's actually. I just wish i had done a few things differently. Life goes by so fast and here I am living from week to week, pay check to pay check. Well, at least I have a job right...., got to be more thankful.
Heh, so here is the question. What are we supposed to be doing? Just what is it that we 'need' to be doing? I guess I just need a hobby. Don't get me wrong I'm not unhappy. I have a lovely woman and child in my life and things are going great. You know the drill..., once we reach the top of one mountain we look for the next to climb. Is that whats going on here? Is that what I'm supposed to be doing. Heh,.... I mean some scrabble for money, some for women. Those of you who know me, know I love women. Damn, do I love women. But I'm a one woman man now. (No, laughing there in the back!!!) Yeah, I need a hobby. My daughter is part of my everyday life, and its great but its not enough. Should it be? I don't know. I so new to all of this. When you have children are you supposed to continue your life or press pause for 18+ years? So many questions so little time.
Anyway, back to my second favorite subject. Women.... Look but don't touch right? Heh, now there is a whole new question. Is looking betraying or cheating in a relationship? Perhaps... I've heard arguments in both directions. I don't know. Maybe it has to do with what your thinking while your looking. I really don't consciously know what I'm thinking. I guess its along the lines of "damn" and "holy mother of....". Is that cheating, or is that just being non-pc? Anyone with half an answer is welcome to comment. Many thought and bits of wisdom are requested.
Alright lets look on the other hand. 'My girl'...., she is very loyal..., it is something that attracts me to her. Am I jealous? Oh hell yes, but the fact that she is so loyal makes it easy on me. I'll even go so far as to say this...., I wouldn't mind her going to see a male strip show. In my mind its cool as long as she brings the resulting hormones home to yours truly. She may think that one of the fellows has a great ass, abs or a big thingy... LOL, well you know. Its all good to me. I guess its that way because deep down in my heart i "know" she won't do anything. I guess I just wish she felt the same way. Heh, that may be my fault also. I haven't always been fully committed to her as I am now. I know its taken its toll on her. Maybe I can repair the damage.
Heh, anyway... Its my birthday and I love you all. I love all of you on my friendslist..., well most of you. Also I love all of you whom I have not yet met. Much love to you all. While I'm not Dave Chappell, I am Rick James bitch!!!