i want a grip on your hips.
so tim got in a pretty shitty snowboarding accident. he called me not too long ago on the phone tonight. despite everything that went down with me and him, i will always care about that kid. seriously. and we've been getting along really well lately. we went through a HELL of a lot together. i was with the kid for most of my high school days after school. i did a lot of growing up throughout that relationship. i learned a lot about myself and a lot about other people. so in the end i value it. granted i still think he's a jackass sometimes. but i'll have love for the kid always. not romantically, but just love. i think we're all glad it wasn't anything HORRIBLY serious. i'm thankful he's ok.
i've come to a few conclusions. one of them being, i definitely have a thing for shiny. oh Jesus. i don't know what it is. but i'm like completely stupid when it comes to him. i have no idea what to do or say. i'm like shell-shocked. and i definitely wanna hook up with him again. for some reason i'm really attracted to that kid. i can't explain it and i don't care what anyone thinks about it.
with jim, i have my A-Game on. totally. i'm in such control. and there's other options with boys too. it's insane. me and toni were just discussing it.
anyway. jaime got in a blow out fight with my dad. you know what, if i ever get on the news and sent to a mental institution, it will be because i will maul his and his "wife"'s bodies so badly they won't know what the fuck was going through my head. she was scared for her life in her car and what did he do? fucking hung up. i swear if him or that bitch touched my shit in the house, i will murder. mark my words. i don't regret saying this either. the man has made me a borderline fucking sociopath. he's a horrid human being. this sounds overdramatic, but trust me, if you knew him and everything he has done, you'd feel the same way.
i ran today. it felt really good. then i chain smoked at the computer.
i have a really great love of Queens of the Stone Age lately.
i guess it's all going to be ok. ya know? it will be.
i have some things to do. things to take care of.
p.s. i'm seeing amanda cuomo tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!! and not at guess!!!!!!!!!! haha. we're meeting up and i am soooooooo pumped. i love her. i swear at any time in the day, she cheers me up. i could be having the worst fucking crisis in my life, and she makes me feel better. she's like another lindsay to me. i can't describe it.
the city this saturday....i'm excited.
i'm hopeful for a lot right now.
i've come to a few conclusions. one of them being, i definitely have a thing for shiny. oh Jesus. i don't know what it is. but i'm like completely stupid when it comes to him. i have no idea what to do or say. i'm like shell-shocked. and i definitely wanna hook up with him again. for some reason i'm really attracted to that kid. i can't explain it and i don't care what anyone thinks about it.
with jim, i have my A-Game on. totally. i'm in such control. and there's other options with boys too. it's insane. me and toni were just discussing it.
anyway. jaime got in a blow out fight with my dad. you know what, if i ever get on the news and sent to a mental institution, it will be because i will maul his and his "wife"'s bodies so badly they won't know what the fuck was going through my head. she was scared for her life in her car and what did he do? fucking hung up. i swear if him or that bitch touched my shit in the house, i will murder. mark my words. i don't regret saying this either. the man has made me a borderline fucking sociopath. he's a horrid human being. this sounds overdramatic, but trust me, if you knew him and everything he has done, you'd feel the same way.
i ran today. it felt really good. then i chain smoked at the computer.
i have a really great love of Queens of the Stone Age lately.
i guess it's all going to be ok. ya know? it will be.
i have some things to do. things to take care of.
p.s. i'm seeing amanda cuomo tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!! and not at guess!!!!!!!!!! haha. we're meeting up and i am soooooooo pumped. i love her. i swear at any time in the day, she cheers me up. i could be having the worst fucking crisis in my life, and she makes me feel better. she's like another lindsay to me. i can't describe it.
the city this saturday....i'm excited.
i'm hopeful for a lot right now.