Still upset about A-kon.
So A-kon is this weekend, and my lack of a table is starting to make me really depressed. Even moreso when two of my friends made it off the waitlist and left me behind in the loser club. I suppose there's three more days to see if anybody else cancels and I can move up, but I'm really not optimistic on this. Even though it went so badly last year, I would not mind splitting a table up into thirds instead of halves if it got me in and if I had been the one to get the table I would certainly have done so, but clearly my friends do not feel the same. I know I should be happy for them for getting in, but I am, as always, a selfish bitch, and more inclined to think about how much I want to be able to sell things there. Something that makes this worse is I remember Tracie talking about how if she made it off the waitlist she would be willing to give the table over to the two of us that don't have steady jobs, but when Keri made it in she invited Tracie and there wasn't another word about it. Keri also invited her to San Japan when she won the art contest, of course. So that's TWO cons they are suddenly going to together, and I am just here feeling severely left out.
I am putting some stuff in the art show, because I'm apparently that desperate to make SOMETHING of this con, but those screenprints have gone to two shows so far and nobody's even bid on them, so really I don't know why I bother. I might also be going up to the hotel Thursday night to see if anything's happened and I can squeeze in somewhere, which is what everyone else was planning to do before, but I don't know if anyone has ever had success like this. Ugh.
I was really looking forward to this stupid con. I wanted to see how my full collection of buttons would do, since I only had them in a noticeable display at AnimeFest, and now I have those Tiger & Bunny ones done too. I think I'd almost be happy to just have enough tablespace for those and not bother with everything else. Nobody gives a shit about prints anyway, though I do have some new stuff there. But really, I wouldn't take up that much space.
Aaargh I don't know what to do. This is just so frustrating. I get the feeling that if I wasn't so terrible at being social and having friends this would not be so much of an issue. As it is, my friends clearly have other friends they would much rather help out, so I guess I will just be left home alone while everyone else is having fun and making money. Would not be surprised if I end up in bed crying at least one of those nights, or even days, because I'm that much of a loser. Sigh.
I am putting some stuff in the art show, because I'm apparently that desperate to make SOMETHING of this con, but those screenprints have gone to two shows so far and nobody's even bid on them, so really I don't know why I bother. I might also be going up to the hotel Thursday night to see if anything's happened and I can squeeze in somewhere, which is what everyone else was planning to do before, but I don't know if anyone has ever had success like this. Ugh.
I was really looking forward to this stupid con. I wanted to see how my full collection of buttons would do, since I only had them in a noticeable display at AnimeFest, and now I have those Tiger & Bunny ones done too. I think I'd almost be happy to just have enough tablespace for those and not bother with everything else. Nobody gives a shit about prints anyway, though I do have some new stuff there. But really, I wouldn't take up that much space.
Aaargh I don't know what to do. This is just so frustrating. I get the feeling that if I wasn't so terrible at being social and having friends this would not be so much of an issue. As it is, my friends clearly have other friends they would much rather help out, so I guess I will just be left home alone while everyone else is having fun and making money. Would not be surprised if I end up in bed crying at least one of those nights, or even days, because I'm that much of a loser. Sigh.