Holidays need to stop sucking.
Well, the new year's tradition of sitting around in a corner watching mom and all her friends have fun while I feel awkward and kind of bored hasn't died. I am still able to feel completely alone while surrounded by people. It's not that I don't like them, I just have almost nothing in common with them and I'm not part of their crowd so I can't really talk or joke with them. And as usual I didn't have a drop of alcohol. I'm really bad at this party thing.
I was really looking forward to having soba for new year's, but by that time mom was too tired to cook that. I don't know if we'll have some later today. We're supposed to have sushi and I'm supposedly making mochi. I don't know what's going on though.
I finally got paper to print cards on, but I feel stupid sending them out when it's already January. I guess I'll do it anyway, but maybe not today if it gets busy again...which it probably won't for a while still, but I'm too bummed out right now to do much of anything. I actually kind of feel like crying, and that's stupid, I shouldn't have anything to want to cry about. I don't know.
Well, happy new year, I guess. Even though it pretty much isn't over here, but whatever. But I guess I just suck. Maybe I should have just stayed in bed with the cat after all.
I was really looking forward to having soba for new year's, but by that time mom was too tired to cook that. I don't know if we'll have some later today. We're supposed to have sushi and I'm supposedly making mochi. I don't know what's going on though.
I finally got paper to print cards on, but I feel stupid sending them out when it's already January. I guess I'll do it anyway, but maybe not today if it gets busy again...which it probably won't for a while still, but I'm too bummed out right now to do much of anything. I actually kind of feel like crying, and that's stupid, I shouldn't have anything to want to cry about. I don't know.
Well, happy new year, I guess. Even though it pretty much isn't over here, but whatever. But I guess I just suck. Maybe I should have just stayed in bed with the cat after all.