Hi, I'm a fucking moron!
Ugh...so I woke up half an hour after I should have left for school and decided that having not done a damn thing over the weekend there was no reason to bother even going, and then I proceeded to continue to not work and it's now almost the time I would have left Denton. I just have zero motivation at all. I'm supposed to write up some bs about tai chi and send it to somebody else in my group, and I, like an idiot, haven't been able to figure out what to do for that. Not to mention I REALLY should have some damn good progress on my projects by Wednesday, but no, I haven't touched anything at all! Why am I so goddamn stupid? Argh. At least I went ahead and did this week's art history thing...but extra credit paper for that class is due by next week, too.
I thought the break would be a nice refresher so I could get back to working and not being in a massive rut, but it turns out I'm even more lethargic and unmotivated than when it started. I think I really need something to look forward to, but the future won't stop looking bleak. I'm obviously not good enough to work anywhere if I'm not good enough to even do well this semester. Like hell anybody's ever going to hire me with my nonexistent skills. Shit.
Something else the break was supposed to fix would be my tendency to go hours after waking up without eating, but clearly that hasn't happened either. It apparently only takes me two days to get sick of turkey, since I didn't want to eat anymore even before I left for Granbury. I guess I'm going to have to go cook some ramen or something, since the chicken that was in the refrigerator before Thanksgiving is most certainly bad now.
I just want to crawl back into bed with the cats and sleep the rest of the day away as well. But I obviously cannot afford to do that. Ugh, maybe it would help a little if anyone were around to talk to, but I'm pretty sure nobody is at this hour. Well, I guess I should at least try to find some sort of food or something, and then maybe I won't feel so much like just giving up and failing one or two classes and in doing so, having to retake a year of college. Because I can afford that, sure.
I thought the break would be a nice refresher so I could get back to working and not being in a massive rut, but it turns out I'm even more lethargic and unmotivated than when it started. I think I really need something to look forward to, but the future won't stop looking bleak. I'm obviously not good enough to work anywhere if I'm not good enough to even do well this semester. Like hell anybody's ever going to hire me with my nonexistent skills. Shit.
Something else the break was supposed to fix would be my tendency to go hours after waking up without eating, but clearly that hasn't happened either. It apparently only takes me two days to get sick of turkey, since I didn't want to eat anymore even before I left for Granbury. I guess I'm going to have to go cook some ramen or something, since the chicken that was in the refrigerator before Thanksgiving is most certainly bad now.
I just want to crawl back into bed with the cats and sleep the rest of the day away as well. But I obviously cannot afford to do that. Ugh, maybe it would help a little if anyone were around to talk to, but I'm pretty sure nobody is at this hour. Well, I guess I should at least try to find some sort of food or something, and then maybe I won't feel so much like just giving up and failing one or two classes and in doing so, having to retake a year of college. Because I can afford that, sure.