I'm in an abusive relationship.
So, the decision to shunt all the upperclassman comm design courses to Dallas has been recanted, which means all my classes are going to be in Denton like they should. Unfortunately, this also means the schedule has gone back to the original, and I am once again stuck in Keith's class. Dammit, I was really hoping I could have taken a class with Michael or Jack again instead. Even Eric would have been better, but I'll be in screenprinting during his class. Keith and I just don't really get along, I'm pretty sure. -_- I don't know if it's just publication design or what, but ugh. But I guess I really shouldn't complain about not having to take at least 5 hours out of two days a week to take a class in a city I hate.
But this means we're definitely going to be looking for an apartment in Denton, and I'm worried about that because I don't have a clue how this whole apartment process works, and I'm afraid of getting rejected for not having a job and I'm also scared that our financial aid will run out really quickly and we won't be able to pay our bills but omg I don't want to keep commuting. I don't know what to do. x_x And if we do move, that means mom will have to move as well, and let me tell you how fun that doesn't sound to coordinate. Arrgh, just thinking about the moving process makes me cringe.
I really need an income. I should be looking for an internship or something, but I have no idea how to go about that, or where to even start. I haven't even put together a portfolio or resume. My work's such crap compared to almost everyone else in the program, and half of them will also be looking at the same time, so I think I'm in for a world of rejection. I might as well apply to places like alphagraphics or something, I don't know. This whole thing terrifies me. I can't handle life, apparently. -_-
Anyway, the main short-term story of my life here is how school decided to screw me over Monday. Oh, your huge annual report project is due Monday? Here, have another all essay Asian art history exam as well! What's that? Not enough work? Be sure to have the draft for your Japanese research project poster done at that time! All your information, in both languages! Ugh, I don't know how I'm going to get all that done. And yet, I don't seem to be working tonight. In fact, I just woke up from a three or four hour nap, but given the fact that I was up until 5:30 this morning, I think I'm entitled this time.
And now it's pouring. Looks like I'll have to see if I can scrounge up any food in the house. If nothing else, I think we have stuff for okonomiyaki. omg so tired. x__x
I'm pretty sure Tuesday can't come soon enough.
But this means we're definitely going to be looking for an apartment in Denton, and I'm worried about that because I don't have a clue how this whole apartment process works, and I'm afraid of getting rejected for not having a job and I'm also scared that our financial aid will run out really quickly and we won't be able to pay our bills but omg I don't want to keep commuting. I don't know what to do. x_x And if we do move, that means mom will have to move as well, and let me tell you how fun that doesn't sound to coordinate. Arrgh, just thinking about the moving process makes me cringe.
I really need an income. I should be looking for an internship or something, but I have no idea how to go about that, or where to even start. I haven't even put together a portfolio or resume. My work's such crap compared to almost everyone else in the program, and half of them will also be looking at the same time, so I think I'm in for a world of rejection. I might as well apply to places like alphagraphics or something, I don't know. This whole thing terrifies me. I can't handle life, apparently. -_-
Anyway, the main short-term story of my life here is how school decided to screw me over Monday. Oh, your huge annual report project is due Monday? Here, have another all essay Asian art history exam as well! What's that? Not enough work? Be sure to have the draft for your Japanese research project poster done at that time! All your information, in both languages! Ugh, I don't know how I'm going to get all that done. And yet, I don't seem to be working tonight. In fact, I just woke up from a three or four hour nap, but given the fact that I was up until 5:30 this morning, I think I'm entitled this time.
And now it's pouring. Looks like I'll have to see if I can scrounge up any food in the house. If nothing else, I think we have stuff for okonomiyaki. omg so tired. x__x
I'm pretty sure Tuesday can't come soon enough.