Help, please?

[quasiskunk]

RC (my bf) is a delivery driver for a company that delivers drugs and supplies for people and families of hospice patients. Today, he called me and said he had a delivery to a kid with terminal cancer, and wanted to know if I had a fursuit in my car. For once, I didn't, but I told him I could wear Aragorn's if he'd let me (he did). So I went to his

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[stickypawz]

I remember the first time I had to deal with death face to face, in a service manner and I knew that person. They were a High School associate. She had been in a serious car accident and was in a coma.

My shaman teacher at the time refused to administer aid unless the family asked him directly. Which could not happen at the time. So, I went in his stead. I was not prepared for what I faced, I was all ego and awesome in my limited and basic knowledge of Shamanism. I was the naive apprentice. My stomach feel out when I saw the patient, and took all my metal to keep it together. I did keep it together though, and did what little I could do, but it was a punch to the gut.

All I wanted to do was help, to bring comfort, offer another way. In so doing I did not and was not prepared for the situation. I went blindly into that ICU with thoughts of the good I was going to do. From it came the first lesson that took me years to actually accept. There are times when we have to "Detach" our selves from the situation. To care enough to do what we do but not enough let our selves become overly attached to things out side our control. Least it drags us down into a dark place.

Shamans say if you are not careful around those dyeing, as they cross over they will take a piece of you with them if you are not grounded. Especially, if you are in an altered state. Fursuitng is an altered state. Mask magic/medicine is a very powerful form of shamanism, and most furries don't realize its full potential.

So, you will have to detach, and accept fate at hand. Its not your fault, this was set in motion long ago before you knew the boy. Your attempts to help, DID. It helped the family, and in that moment did more good then you realized, or may ever realize. Focus on that, and turn your energy to bringing even more smiles to the rest of the world in that boys memory...

I wish I could offer you more.