I just...I dunno anymore [Venting--No One Should Read or Care]
I pretty much lost it tonight.
Like every other Tuesday, I went to Coffee to meet and be sociable with the other Furs in town. But, honestly, I wasn't in the best of moods tonight. Between the lack of sleep, the fact that my 2 year old septic tank needs heavy, out of warranty maintenance, and I was truly lamenting the fact that I never thought of saving up and taking a vacation to go to the All Star Game, I was really out of it tonight, But when I got to Coffee, it only got worse.
I'm sure people there saw that I wasn't in a great mood, yet no one tried to help pull me out of it; barely anyone talked to me at all. So I just sat there, trying to pull the ASG on my cell phone, which failed. All the loud ruckus, and the horrible radio station playing inane "music" just added to the strife, so I left the table and sat outside by myself. For 45 min, I sat out there, looking up updates to the game off of twitter feeds, and playing solitaire. And no one gave a shit that I went outside. By myself. AGAIN. This happened last week too. So, for 2 weeks in a row, I was left to stare into space, with no one caring whether or not I was there.
By the time we hadda leave, I got a grunted "We're going to Culvers", and everyone left. Hell, I dunno if that was even where they were going. So I got Aragorn into the car, and told him that I was done for the night, and that I didn't want too go out and eat. He then told me they were gunna buy me dinner for my birthday. Really? The person they don't give a crap about, suddenly they feel like being all chummy with? Where were these sentiments while I was with them? Where were these sentiments when I found out that some were going to have a BBQ...but I wasn't on the invite list?
Thanks for...thanks for making me feel special.
Like every other Tuesday, I went to Coffee to meet and be sociable with the other Furs in town. But, honestly, I wasn't in the best of moods tonight. Between the lack of sleep, the fact that my 2 year old septic tank needs heavy, out of warranty maintenance, and I was truly lamenting the fact that I never thought of saving up and taking a vacation to go to the All Star Game, I was really out of it tonight, But when I got to Coffee, it only got worse.
I'm sure people there saw that I wasn't in a great mood, yet no one tried to help pull me out of it; barely anyone talked to me at all. So I just sat there, trying to pull the ASG on my cell phone, which failed. All the loud ruckus, and the horrible radio station playing inane "music" just added to the strife, so I left the table and sat outside by myself. For 45 min, I sat out there, looking up updates to the game off of twitter feeds, and playing solitaire. And no one gave a shit that I went outside. By myself. AGAIN. This happened last week too. So, for 2 weeks in a row, I was left to stare into space, with no one caring whether or not I was there.
By the time we hadda leave, I got a grunted "We're going to Culvers", and everyone left. Hell, I dunno if that was even where they were going. So I got Aragorn into the car, and told him that I was done for the night, and that I didn't want too go out and eat. He then told me they were gunna buy me dinner for my birthday. Really? The person they don't give a crap about, suddenly they feel like being all chummy with? Where were these sentiments while I was with them? Where were these sentiments when I found out that some were going to have a BBQ...but I wasn't on the invite list?
Thanks for...thanks for making me feel special.