friday, i'm in... anxiety?
some days i have a fine day, and then suddenly something little will completely destroy it. presentation review by one of my professors that was snide and unhelpful. no particular sentence was particularly rude, but since i know her, i know the tone, and now i want to cry.
( cut for angsty whining. feel free to skip. no really. )
( cut for angsty whining. feel free to skip. no really. )
i always feel like i can handle the really big things, but then there's like one comment that i know is meant in a snarky way, and kind of mean, and they are hoping i won't get it - or something - and i just break down. and it's all about not crying in public, and then crying in the bathroom. or wherever.
i can suggest something to make it easier though . . . the mindfulness techniques have really come to helping me deal with the the aftermath. or - okay, honestly? yesterday i totally lost it. and, because you know me, i will admit this - i needed to stop, right? i needed a distraction that would fully pull me out of it and allow me to sleep. so, i pulled out "night and fog" and started watching it again. within 15 minutes, i turned the dvd off, and fell asleep easily. you need your own version of "night and fog".
also, i really do need to upload a bunch of the mindfulness tapes i have. i have two of linehan - one as distress tolerance, one as mindfulness, and two of kabot-zinn, all mindfulness. i have them in ipod format, and i have the thing to change them to mp3s. i just don't know how to upload them, or where to! hah.
hope you are feeling better.
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