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Every since I've come back from my vacation, work has been absolutely awful. A promotion ran while I was out, and usually the new purchases aren't actually the problem, it's the measures and revisions that cause issues. We're still working through the last of that and getting close to back on track.
It's not the heavy workload that's been getting me down, though. It's like my company has decided that they need to find every way to make the workday miserable and capitalize on it. I get emails every day or so stating that I need to do this today (but the demand is completely impossible to achieve) then getting nasty emails when I can't get it done. I supposedly have others helping me, but quite honestly, 90% of the time, I have no idea what the fuck they're working on. One just works slow, the other takes little issues and blows them up into epic ordeals that take all day to resolve. The bosses bitch about our results and say we need to pull together and use teamwork to get it all done. Newsflash, genius, if only one person in your 'team' is doing any work, there's no chance you can get the kinds of results you'd get with three people working. I am not the only person to notice and try to bring the performance of the rest of my group to a supervisor's attention, but apparently no one with any authority is interested in addressing the issue. They won't approve overtime, and I just CAN'T get it all done. Not by myself. Not just because you tell me it needs to be done. I'm not behind because I enjoy it, dumbass.
I don't really enjoy my job, but it's been too safe a spot for me to try very hard to change. I'm seriously just so sick, so frustrated, so miserable, I really want out. I don't know what else I want to be doing, but I just don't want it to be this anymore. And I hate that because I do like some people I work with, and the job itself doesn't have to be that bad, even though they've been making it that bad recently. I don't really know how to change, and I'm scared, and I feel totally lost, but I can't keep coming home and feeling like this.