Heh - I know exactly what you mean about all of it!
There are always fond memories of things like that, that make you wish you could have it again. And you know it won't be the same, so you get torn on if you want to or not.
I've considered going back, but right now, it still doesn't feel like the right thing. I still have too many other things that I want to spend my time on, and I'm partly afraid of going back into old patterns. Although, I also have this idea that I would rock and kick ass nowadays, since I HAVE learned leadership, patience, self-confidence, humility, support structures and how they function, respect...etc - although I still have very much to learn. I'm way ahead of where I was back in the day. :)
I think I mostly think of going back now because of: The chance to prove to myself that I have grown and can conquer faster. The chance to improve these skills faster through the training. The chance to do some physical activity on a regular basis....although I never really thought it improved my physical fitness like some people did. I'm sure it would also be a stress outlet/relief and I'd find more peace.
However, I'm still not ready to go back. And I still can't say when I would be.
Besides, we'd hardly be going back "together", more like "at the same time", right? Due to logistical locations?
There are always fond memories of things like that, that make you wish you could have it again. And you know it won't be the same, so you get torn on if you want to or not.
I've considered going back, but right now, it still doesn't feel like the right thing. I still have too many other things that I want to spend my time on, and I'm partly afraid of going back into old patterns. Although, I also have this idea that I would rock and kick ass nowadays, since I HAVE learned leadership, patience, self-confidence, humility, support structures and how they function, respect...etc - although I still have very much to learn. I'm way ahead of where I was back in the day. :)
I think I mostly think of going back now because of: The chance to prove to myself that I have grown and can conquer faster. The chance to improve these skills faster through the training. The chance to do some physical activity on a regular basis....although I never really thought it improved my physical fitness like some people did. I'm sure it would also be a stress outlet/relief and I'd find more peace.
However, I'm still not ready to go back. And I still can't say when I would be.
Besides, we'd hardly be going back "together", more like "at the same time", right? Due to logistical locations?
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