Fic: Vuja De

[quasar273]

Fandom: Stargate: Atlantis
Title: Vujà Dé
Author: Quasar (quasar273)
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: John/Rodney
Date written: February 2008
Length: ~11,000 words

Spoilers: many eps up to 4x15 Outcast
Warnings: borderline underage (15 year old with 16 year old)

Summary: It's bad enough being a teenager and probably gay, but going crazy makes it all worse.

Comments

[quasar273]

Wow, thanks so much for the very thoughtful comments! I have to admit very little of that was planned at a conscious level. That's just how the pacing worked out -- John's angst was pretty much all internal, and though it was intensely emotional for him, that was all below the surface so it needed lots of fat paragraphs describing John's thoughts. Even the dialogue scene with the guidance counselor had so many underlying thoughts it got slowed down.
But of course Rodney is all about the fast talking so it had a very different rhythm once he showed up and forced John to talk about what was happening. To the extent I was aware of that, I worried a little that the pacing was unbalanced, and I tried to use the flash-forwards to offset some of it. But you make the unbalanced pace sound deliberate and meaningful and clever -- I love it!

I will say, from a writing point of view, the story was pretty much out of my control from the moment Rodney got out of the taxi, and lots of stuff happened differently than I planned it from there on.

And of course John will give the relationship a chance -- get together before the siege, break up when returning from Earth, reconcile after Rodney's jumper sinks, hump like bunnies by third season. It's predestined!

[lilac_way]

I have to admit very little of that was planned at a conscious level. That's just how the pacing worked out -- John's angst was pretty much all internal, and though it was intensely emotional for him, that was all below the surface so it needed lots of fat paragraphs describing John's thoughts. Even the dialogue scene with the guidance counselor had so many underlying thoughts it got slowed down.
But of course Rodney is all about the fast talking so it had a very different rhythm once he showed up and forced John to talk about what was happening. To the extent I was aware of that, I worried a little that the pacing was unbalanced, and I tried to use the flash-forwards to offset some of it. But you make the unbalanced pace sound deliberate and meaningful and clever -- I love it!

I think that is how some of the best pieces work though -- you are trying to do one thing, and an entirely different objective (that's not the word I want, but all I can come up with) blossoms out of that. I just took a class with a poetry professor that said some of the best writing choices we make are the subconscious ones.

This was a lovely fic, and I think you communicated that terrible teenage loneliness/confusion very well. I loved it!