all the way down the avenue
this is all regarding the NEWS break-up. i don't know why people are suddenly thinking that this is usual, that this is normal. i don't really want to sit back and just watch this happen. i'm feeling much more rage when it comes to yamapi though, because it feels so fucking selfish that he had to leave the group to pursue his solo career. i don't understand why all the other groups managed to stay through thick and thin, and these groups--these new young groups--just CANNOT. these were my feelings regarding jin leaving KAT-TUN too. i thought he was selfish, and it hurt me so bad to realize that yes, this man can do just that. but jin was always obvious with these things. i knew it was coming too, whenever i see him and his bored look in variety shows and performances. at least with jin, i had a little warning. but this bit with NEWS, this just came like a landslide BAM! from six members, down to four :|
i remember watching arashi's training camp and this one particular line sho had said struck me. not because it was really out of the ordinary. he said something along the lines of "newscasting, acting in dramas... i can do them all because when i do them, i don't think i'm doing them as sakurai sho. i'm doing them as a part of arashi."
that just. stayed with me for quite some time because i can remember what jin had said, when KAT-TUN released Don't U Ever Stop and Lovejuice was included. he said something like "it feels like i've released something as akanishi jin."
those two lines, those two seemingly meaningless lines. meant so much. i don't understand why yamapi and ryo had to give up something. i don't understand why they can't say things--why they can't see things--as sho does. i don't understand why they feel that their needs are above those others in the group. i just feel so so so disappointed right now.
as for ryo, i can remember clearly that johnny's plan for him, upon joining two groups was that the agency will ensure that his schedules WILL NOT FUCKING CLASH. so i don't know why there is a sudden clash now. i don't get it. i don't get what's happening in my fandom. when i joined this fandom four years ago, this was not the place that i started out with. i have seen groups struggling for their debut, working hard to gain popularity, doing absolutely crazy things to be noticed. but people leaving? to pursue THEIR SOLO CAREER? no. that was not my fandom.
i don't know why yamapi is looking so selfish right now (really, i feel like the popularity just went to his head a bit). i don't understand why they had to make ryo /choose/ between his two groups. i don't understand this at all.
i remember watching arashi's training camp and this one particular line sho had said struck me. not because it was really out of the ordinary. he said something along the lines of "newscasting, acting in dramas... i can do them all because when i do them, i don't think i'm doing them as sakurai sho. i'm doing them as a part of arashi."
that just. stayed with me for quite some time because i can remember what jin had said, when KAT-TUN released Don't U Ever Stop and Lovejuice was included. he said something like "it feels like i've released something as akanishi jin."
those two lines, those two seemingly meaningless lines. meant so much. i don't understand why yamapi and ryo had to give up something. i don't understand why they can't say things--why they can't see things--as sho does. i don't understand why they feel that their needs are above those others in the group. i just feel so so so disappointed right now.
as for ryo, i can remember clearly that johnny's plan for him, upon joining two groups was that the agency will ensure that his schedules WILL NOT FUCKING CLASH. so i don't know why there is a sudden clash now. i don't get it. i don't get what's happening in my fandom. when i joined this fandom four years ago, this was not the place that i started out with. i have seen groups struggling for their debut, working hard to gain popularity, doing absolutely crazy things to be noticed. but people leaving? to pursue THEIR SOLO CAREER? no. that was not my fandom.
i don't know why yamapi is looking so selfish right now (really, i feel like the popularity just went to his head a bit). i don't understand why they had to make ryo /choose/ between his two groups. i don't understand this at all.