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Today i found myself doubting every aspect of my life. I questioned everything, and it was almost unbearable. Every word that anyone spoke agitated me until i couldnt take it. Upon that i was doing yard work all day, and in the middle of it i had to run inside, because i seriously broke down. So i laid down and tried to lose myself in a dream. Whatever that dream was, it made the day a little bit better. Im to lonely right now, im to confused, im to fucking lost. I just dont get myself anymore, if i ever did then i wish i could go back to that. I quit doing certain things, because i want to gain peoples respect, but it only seems that it either stays the same or decreases. I dont have a meaning, i cant fing a meaning. And that only makes this that much harder. Every time I write in this, I tell myself this is the last time I will, but it almost feels like this is my only source of communication with the outside world.