Disappearing soon
To the few people who read my journal,
Just to let you all know that I'll most likely be offline from this Sunday for probably 11ish weeks. There's some things I'll miss out on and some things I'll be glad I'm away for, but either way I'm unlikely to post up anything interesting between now and then.
Thanks to everyone who's supported me recently, despite some pretty stupid emotional instability on my part and losing my filter on what I say in case people talk about me behind my back. Am I still paranoid now that I know it actually happens? :) I've learned some pretty important lessons in the past 10 or so months that I've been part of the online community, such as: You shouldn't trust anyone - but you always will; anonymity gives everyone a loud mouth; and most people on the internet are teenagers that haven't grown up.
I've resolved to not let stuff get to me (again) and failed (again). But it actually helps to know that I'm pretty insignificant in the grand scheme of things. People forget, and life doesn't wait for you to catch up if you're distracted with the past.
So anyways, a part of me is asking: 'Why can't I stay?' and the other part can't wait to get going, learn and just live my life. For those of you who don't know: I'm going to ride racehorses! (I'm allowed to be excited right?) It feels like this is the point in my life I've been waiting for where everything falls into place and I can really live. I've felt out of place since I realised the other kids didn't understand what it meant to be treated like an object, finally it feels like I've caught up with the world I was meant to be living in. Sadly it's pretty far from the internet :P
I'll be back online at some point though, and possibly whenever I can get into town. I'll miss you all (yes, all of you).
Peace. Out.
Zhaena
Just to let you all know that I'll most likely be offline from this Sunday for probably 11ish weeks. There's some things I'll miss out on and some things I'll be glad I'm away for, but either way I'm unlikely to post up anything interesting between now and then.
Thanks to everyone who's supported me recently, despite some pretty stupid emotional instability on my part and losing my filter on what I say in case people talk about me behind my back. Am I still paranoid now that I know it actually happens? :) I've learned some pretty important lessons in the past 10 or so months that I've been part of the online community, such as: You shouldn't trust anyone - but you always will; anonymity gives everyone a loud mouth; and most people on the internet are teenagers that haven't grown up.
I've resolved to not let stuff get to me (again) and failed (again). But it actually helps to know that I'm pretty insignificant in the grand scheme of things. People forget, and life doesn't wait for you to catch up if you're distracted with the past.
So anyways, a part of me is asking: 'Why can't I stay?' and the other part can't wait to get going, learn and just live my life. For those of you who don't know: I'm going to ride racehorses! (I'm allowed to be excited right?) It feels like this is the point in my life I've been waiting for where everything falls into place and I can really live. I've felt out of place since I realised the other kids didn't understand what it meant to be treated like an object, finally it feels like I've caught up with the world I was meant to be living in. Sadly it's pretty far from the internet :P
I'll be back online at some point though, and possibly whenever I can get into town. I'll miss you all (yes, all of you).
Peace. Out.
Zhaena