All In
When I fall in love, I don't mess around. I fall hard. This tendency also extends beyond romantic centers. Anything I find interesting I pursue diligently. Well, at least when the time is ripe, but when it is, I sink my teeth into my interests.
But anyway, back to the love bit. Being a bit of an idealist that I am, I have a certain view as to how my life should be. This is not readily shattered for me, which prolongs certain pains. What I mean is its hard, maybe even impossible, for me to accept that things in my life won't be perfect (though it's a dynamic perfection, and I don't mean "flawless," I mean 'perfect'). Having everything fall apart for me right now certainly is quite a plight to be put through (not without its rewards, I suppose) but it does nothing to taint my ideal. Hope is a cruel thing to have if it's never fulfilled, but having faith as well eases the wait and disappointment. Not everyone can keep a truly idealistic mindset. It is incredibly taxing on the psyche during trying times. It takes a lot of..., well I'm not quite sure, but it takes a lot. It certainly requires a lot of faith. I guess that's where all mine went.
If you read Steinbeck's East of Eden (and you should, yes you...don't let the stigma of being featured on Oprah's book club (shudder) stop you), the character Aaron had a similar outlook on life, though he had a crippling case. I hope I fare better in the long run. On a semi-related note, I also can related to Caleb (specially now) in that he's made many mistakes and tries to resist making more, and in the end, he has a choice. That's one of the great things about the novel, it encompasses so much that you're bound to find yourself in there somewhere.
But anyway, back to the love bit. Being a bit of an idealist that I am, I have a certain view as to how my life should be. This is not readily shattered for me, which prolongs certain pains. What I mean is its hard, maybe even impossible, for me to accept that things in my life won't be perfect (though it's a dynamic perfection, and I don't mean "flawless," I mean 'perfect'). Having everything fall apart for me right now certainly is quite a plight to be put through (not without its rewards, I suppose) but it does nothing to taint my ideal. Hope is a cruel thing to have if it's never fulfilled, but having faith as well eases the wait and disappointment. Not everyone can keep a truly idealistic mindset. It is incredibly taxing on the psyche during trying times. It takes a lot of..., well I'm not quite sure, but it takes a lot. It certainly requires a lot of faith. I guess that's where all mine went.
If you read Steinbeck's East of Eden (and you should, yes you...don't let the stigma of being featured on Oprah's book club (shudder) stop you), the character Aaron had a similar outlook on life, though he had a crippling case. I hope I fare better in the long run. On a semi-related note, I also can related to Caleb (specially now) in that he's made many mistakes and tries to resist making more, and in the end, he has a choice. That's one of the great things about the novel, it encompasses so much that you're bound to find yourself in there somewhere.