My Breakup Song
Sometimes I watch a Christian Pastor on television named Joel Osteen. I really enjoy his sermons and his approach to religion, he's funny, he's charismatic, AND he gets his point across without a lot of unnecessary songs and shouts of "Praise Jesus!". A few weeks ago Joel asked everyone to look at their life to see if they could notice God at work in their lives, and to be quite honest, at that particular moment, no, I could not see God at work in my life, and frankly, I felt a little abandoned by God.
But everything happens for a reason. And sometimes, with a little more distance of time, you can look back objectively and notice something at work -- whether it be God, Karma, the Universe, whatever you want to call it, but I believe, undoubtedly, that there is some guiding force at work.
Ivy always trys to focus on the positive, "What did you LEARN from this experience? How will you change yourself, or your actions, in the future?" She's constantly asking questions like this, and sometimes I don't learn anything because I'm stubborn and hard headed, but with time, you can look back objectively and ask yourself, "What have I learned?"
Enough time has elapased for me to say that I think I've learned a lot, not only what NOT to do in a relationship, but what can be FORGIVEN in a relationship. The list of things I did wrong in my past relationships could fill a book, I realize that, but the big lesson here is not what I shouldn't have done, or even what I should have done, it's about the very nature of love itself -- love is forgiving. I've always believed that love never dies, but I wasn't sure if love was enough to forgive huge mistakes. It is. Love is enough.
My breakup song was "Fuck You, You Hoe, I Don't Want You Back," for obvious reasons, and so I'm posting it, because while I may have been angry, bitter, and extremely hurt, I DO like the song, AND it's exactly how I felt at that time. But looking back on it, not only do I want the bastard back, but I hold no grudges. Either love is truly blind, or I'm a complete idiot.
"Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back)"
Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No
[Verse 1:]
See, I dont know why I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel
[Chorus:]
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
[Verse 2:]
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another act, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Ya questioned, did I care
You could ask anyone, I even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad.
It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
As Always,
Nassau
But everything happens for a reason. And sometimes, with a little more distance of time, you can look back objectively and notice something at work -- whether it be God, Karma, the Universe, whatever you want to call it, but I believe, undoubtedly, that there is some guiding force at work.
Ivy always trys to focus on the positive, "What did you LEARN from this experience? How will you change yourself, or your actions, in the future?" She's constantly asking questions like this, and sometimes I don't learn anything because I'm stubborn and hard headed, but with time, you can look back objectively and ask yourself, "What have I learned?"
Enough time has elapased for me to say that I think I've learned a lot, not only what NOT to do in a relationship, but what can be FORGIVEN in a relationship. The list of things I did wrong in my past relationships could fill a book, I realize that, but the big lesson here is not what I shouldn't have done, or even what I should have done, it's about the very nature of love itself -- love is forgiving. I've always believed that love never dies, but I wasn't sure if love was enough to forgive huge mistakes. It is. Love is enough.
My breakup song was "Fuck You, You Hoe, I Don't Want You Back," for obvious reasons, and so I'm posting it, because while I may have been angry, bitter, and extremely hurt, I DO like the song, AND it's exactly how I felt at that time. But looking back on it, not only do I want the bastard back, but I hold no grudges. Either love is truly blind, or I'm a complete idiot.
"Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back)"
Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No
[Verse 1:]
See, I dont know why I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel
[Chorus:]
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
[Verse 2:]
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another act, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Ya questioned, did I care
You could ask anyone, I even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad.
It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
As Always,
Nassau