Keep your head held high
Sometimes, while staring out into the ocean on those reflective beach trips, I wonder what my life would be like if I had chosen different paths. I wonder what would have happened if I was braver, if I was stronger, if I spoke my mind. I wonder what would have happened if I hadn't said certain things, if I didn't talk to one person or another. If I hadn't made a particular choice then would things be the same or would things be better? Maybe worse? A lot of times I think that I make the wrong choices, and I make myself sad because I think that I should have done the opposite of what I did. A lot of the time, the choices I wish I had made were the safe ones, the ones I knew would keep things the same and wouldn't cause any ripples in my life. I remind myself at the end of the day that if certain things were meant to be then they will inevitably BE. If not, then you can't dwell on the past or the choices you could have made different. Life isn't meant to be lived in the past, it's meant to be lived forward. We shouldn't worry about the choices we make, as long as we feel good about them. I know that a lot of times I bring myself down for things that are so insignificant that they shouldn't even bother me and shouldn't matter. I'm trying to not let that stuff phase me. I shouldn't care what other people think of my choices. Even if stuff gets to me, even though I feel sad and I cry, or I'm angry, I wont break... I always tell myself that being happy is what matters most. But being happy is so much harder than being angry or sad. Things are constantly in chaos and we can't control it. All we can control is our little bit of peace within it. :) I hope you feel better soon <3