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I just found out not too long ago that my paternal grandmother has died.
Not too long after my last post, she had some kind of a stroke that basically left her a vegetable; when my dad noticed on Tuesday (which just so happened to be her 89th birthday) that she wasn't getting better, he had her put in hospice at the nursing home she was staying at. It all happened suddenly, but we'd all been preparing ourselves for this for at least a year now, and I figured the end was going to look like this anyway. I guess I ought to be glad the state she was in since Monday didn't last any longer than it did and put her in more pain, even if it feels a little inappropriate to feel that way.
I'm handling this pretty well, all things considered. Of course I'm feeling some confusion and discomfort, but they feel faint and far away. Mostly I just feel numb. My parents left to go to the nursing home about fifteen or so minutes ago for all the formalities, and I don't think I'll be able to go to sleep until they come back, which hopefully shouldn't be that long.
I know I don't go on AIM or Skype as often as I should, and that I generally keep to myself online, but if over the next few days I seem a little more distant than normal, or a little more sensitive, or something like that? I thought you all should know why.
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Not too long after my last post, she had some kind of a stroke that basically left her a vegetable; when my dad noticed on Tuesday (which just so happened to be her 89th birthday) that she wasn't getting better, he had her put in hospice at the nursing home she was staying at. It all happened suddenly, but we'd all been preparing ourselves for this for at least a year now, and I figured the end was going to look like this anyway. I guess I ought to be glad the state she was in since Monday didn't last any longer than it did and put her in more pain, even if it feels a little inappropriate to feel that way.
I'm handling this pretty well, all things considered. Of course I'm feeling some confusion and discomfort, but they feel faint and far away. Mostly I just feel numb. My parents left to go to the nursing home about fifteen or so minutes ago for all the formalities, and I don't think I'll be able to go to sleep until they come back, which hopefully shouldn't be that long.
I know I don't go on AIM or Skype as often as I should, and that I generally keep to myself online, but if over the next few days I seem a little more distant than normal, or a little more sensitive, or something like that? I thought you all should know why.
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