I'm not in a good mood today.
Schools is not as good as it should be, the play is alright, but what is fucking me up is the lack of love I am feeling. I know I am always complaining about this, but I feel so fucking unattractive.
I've been spending lonely weekends, moping like a little bitch. Why dont I get some girl, and mess around, blah blah blah. Thats the thing, ever since I got into MDC, I have been feeling like a total loser. I dont feel like the confident, charismatic Nick I thought I used to be. I realize that I find so many girls attractive, and find them all out of my league. I used to always be able to talk to girl, cuz I didnt give a shit. But lately, I see myself as the lil fat kid from Twin Lakes Elementary School who had no courage to even say a word to anyone.
What the fuck is wrong with me? I've gone through this transformation, and it is driving me nuts. Maybe its all in my head, or maybe its reality. I dont need any pity from anyone, because its not gonna help. I just need to be loved. This isnt Nick, the porn-loving loser talking. This is Nick, the person whos heart is without a home.
Nick
I've been spending lonely weekends, moping like a little bitch. Why dont I get some girl, and mess around, blah blah blah. Thats the thing, ever since I got into MDC, I have been feeling like a total loser. I dont feel like the confident, charismatic Nick I thought I used to be. I realize that I find so many girls attractive, and find them all out of my league. I used to always be able to talk to girl, cuz I didnt give a shit. But lately, I see myself as the lil fat kid from Twin Lakes Elementary School who had no courage to even say a word to anyone.
What the fuck is wrong with me? I've gone through this transformation, and it is driving me nuts. Maybe its all in my head, or maybe its reality. I dont need any pity from anyone, because its not gonna help. I just need to be loved. This isnt Nick, the porn-loving loser talking. This is Nick, the person whos heart is without a home.
Nick